wanttochange024's journal

[shpeperfeck]

It's good that, even though your busy, you're still thinkinging about and doing your best to control your addiction. My problem recently is that i let my guard down. Things seemed to be going well and it slipped up behind me.

You're showing strong resolve!

[wanttochange024]

Thanks shpeperfeck.

I'm feeling very tried and my thoughts have been harder to control the past week or so. I've been having many more tempting thoughts the past week. It's been much harder to redirect and control my thoughts. I do not want to return to my old thought behavior. If I let this continue then I know other old behaviors will also return. And I can't have that.

Today I will try to get some rest and also think about my recovery from this addiction.

I want to be over this. I spent to much time thinking about this filth.

Still no porn, but the tempting thoughts are beginning to return. I must return and work on controlling my tempting thoughts. I must think good thoughts.

I shall return from the depths of my own hell, I shall return.
I shall return.

I haven't been
Thinking Good Thoughts!
but I shall return.

wtc024

[MrOuch]

wtc024,

Glad you're still on track, but watch those temptations. Don't dwell on them, try visiting here and post about them. With so many here wishing you well, you're bound to succeed. A new baby can make everyone exhausted, and that's a bad thing regarding temptation. Be strong for your wife and child.

You can do this!

MrOuch

[wanttochange024]

Thanks MrOuch, I always enjoy hearing kind words from you. You are correct that I should come here and post about what I'm feeling. I just haven't had a lot of extra time over the past few months. And when I do have extra time I been spending that time with my family. I've been thinking about my recovery and how I got started using P and how that made me feel about my self. I've got a better hold on the tempting thoughts that I was dealing with during my last post. But I realize that these thoughts may continue to arise. I just need to be aware of these thoughts and redirect them as they start. I don't want to return to my old thoughts and behaviors. I've worked to hard to get to this point in my recovery. It scary how these thoughts are so deep in my being that I will have to stay on top of them for years to come, maybe always. But I will do what I have to do. With the help of the Lord I can do anything. This to shall come to pass.

I've overcome a lot of things in my life and I shall overcome this too. As I said in my last post "I shall return".

I'll try not to go two weeks before my next post.

Thinking Good Thoughts!

wtc024

[MrOuch]

I just haven't had a lot of extra time over the past few months. And when I do have extra time I been spending that time with my family.

If you don't have time to spend here, I'm glad you're spending time with your family. You have your head on straight and your priorities set right. Keep vigilant. Keep clean.

MrOuch

[wanttochange024]

Thanks MrOuch.

I thought that things were going to slow down a bit, but it seems that I'm as busy now as I've been over the past few months. I guess that's good because it keeps me from having extra time to let my thoughts slip.

I'm still dealing with my thoughts and lustful eyes, staying on top of things at the moment. I just don't like that I've got these thoughts in my head. Trying to focus on good thoughts. I've spent to many years letting these thoughts of filth into my mind and it is hard to keep them from coming up from time to time. I'm trying to be quick at recognizing these thoughts when they begin and redirect them to something more uplifting. I've been calling on the Lord to help me with this and it is helping.

I'm looking forward to the day that I've changed my thought patterns and my perceptions. I will continue to work on this until that day comes. Along the way I hope that I'm able to help others do the same. This filth we call P is one of the worst things in our culture. I pray that we as a people will realize the harm that this filth does to people of all ages and sex. And that we will begin to take a stronger stand against this industry.

Stay strong everyone and be thankful of the porn free days that you have because of this support board. Thanks Wes!

Thinking Good Thoughts!

wtc024 ;D

[wanttochange024]

Things are going well, still staying busy. Staying in control of my thoughts. Still concerned about each day and each moment. I haven't had a lot of time to sit down and think about my recovery lately. I don't want that to become the down fall. I'll try to find a little time over the next few weeks to rethink how things have gone and plan out the future. As for now, I've got to continue whats been working and stay busy.

Thinking Good Thoughts!

wtc024

[wanttochange024]

Staying true to myself and trying to become a better person. Love, compassion and truth are things that I want throughout my life. In my family relationships, work, church and all other areas of my life. I will continue to become a better man each and every day of my life. If I'm not working on getting better, then I pleased with where I am. I want to always look ahead and believe that I can improve and that things in my life can also get better. Believe.

Wishing everyone a wonderful Holiday Season. Remember why we celebrate this time of year. God gave his only Son that our sins might be forgiven. God is Love! God is compassion! God is truth! When we live with these things in our life, we live close to God. Keep close your relationship with God. Praise be to God!

Thinking Good Thoughts!

wtc024

[MrOuch]

I want to always look ahead and believe that I can improve and that things in my life can also get better. Believe.

A very healthy attitude!!! Have a blessed holiday season too.

Be well today.

MrOuch

[wanttochange024]

Haven't made a post since Dec. 2, staying busy with work, family and the holiday season. Doing well for the time being, trying not to let the stress of the holiday season get to me.

Thinking about the true reason for this holiday season.

Thanks be to God for giving us his only Son to save us all from our sins. Praise His name in all that you do. What so ever things are true.

Happy Holidays!

Thinking Good Thoughts!

wtc024 ;D

[tomlincolnsixecho]

wanttochange. I know these thoughsts, and temptations, probably like everyone here. I've found that you can't keep the thoughts racing in your head, rationalizing about whether they are acceptable, is a very bad idea. If you start arguing about whether they are right or wrong, its a recipe for disaster. I have learnt that at the onset of the thoughts they need to be eliminated immediately if you leave it too late, it will be near impossible to end.

Good luck

[MrOuch]

wtc024,

Glad to see you're doing well. Please continue.

MrOuch