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Post by Mountain on Aug 24, 2007 12:22:40 GMT -5
Day 18 and things are still going well. I have been stay busy in other areas and just staying away from crap. I have a long ways to go but I am feeling good.
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Post by Mountain on Aug 24, 2007 17:35:01 GMT -5
I have spent a lot of time today on the site. It has been good but I also need to be working.
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Post by Mountain on Aug 26, 2007 1:05:46 GMT -5
Well I am on day 19 today. I have not been writting a lot of detail on my journal but I have been doing well. One of the challanges I suffer from is when I get better in one area others lack..
I have spent some time on the board the last few days. It is nice to learn and feel strenth but it is hard because I procastinate other things that need to be done. This generally leads to stress which makes my journey harder over all.
I am not going to give up. I am going to keep trucking down the path. I know that I can make it and I will.
Things are good at home. My wife is very supportive of me and we have been happy. They never are bad just when I mess up it causes pain to her and I hate that. I want so bad to be that Husband she deserves.
It is late so I need to get in bed. I have my first church meeting tomorrow at 6am.
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Post by wanttochange024 on Aug 28, 2007 20:37:56 GMT -5
Mountain,
Just stopped by to read your journal, keep up the good work.
The Mountains Win Again. BT
Think Good Thoughts!
wtc024
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Post by Mountain on Sept 1, 2007 1:49:28 GMT -5
Thanks for the comments.
I thought I would take a minute tonight and write a little more that just what day I am at. I am still going strong.
I have spent a lot of time on the board over the last several days. I have wasted time in some cases.. not with the in the reading but in avoiding other things I needed to be doing.
I have also really grown too. I like some of the things I have read and feel them deep in my heart. I have even been sharing post with my wife. It is a little weird but I think she likes to hear it because she knows that this is good for me and when I share some of the comments by those on the board she is amazed.
I really like this accountability circle things. I feel a little weak because I really am not much of a writer and not sure I contribute like the others. I do fee for each of them and pray for them as well.
It has been a great thing for me to be a part of. I am greatful for my group and the fact they allow me to participate.
My recovery is going well right now. I am getting closer to the 1 month milestone again. I feel confident I will get there and beyond. I am still pretty stressed out at work and have brought that on myselft Some of that is tied to this addiction and all the time that was wasted and all the things I have procrastinated. But I can not get down. i can not afford too. It does no good. I have to take one day at a time pick up and move forward.
I need to get thing moving with my scripture study. I have been doing some but need to do a lot more. I have been very active with the missionaries from the church recently and working with them serving others. That has been a major strength to me as well. I really feel the Lord is blessing me right now.
I have so far to go but I can see the Light and it really is a bright light.
Forward I press...
Mountain
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Post by Mountain on Sept 4, 2007 0:42:12 GMT -5
Checking in. I am still doing good with this. I am still stressed about work. I am very behind on a number of areas.
I am just about to a month free of P and MB!!! a great start to where I am going!
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Post by Mountain on Sept 5, 2007 18:47:03 GMT -5
30 DAYS TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAHOOO!!!!
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Post by Mountain on Sept 6, 2007 1:09:19 GMT -5
I have spent a little more time on the board today. Not sure why.. I am doing well but just felt the need to be here and have checked in several times today.
I feel good. I am making great progress again and plan to continue on.
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Post by Mountain on Sept 7, 2007 0:52:00 GMT -5
I have been engaged in a different practice lately. Nothing bad! I have been talking to my wife a lot about the board. I have been sharing post with her etc. It feels kinda weird but good at the same time. I think it has helped me and helped her to know that I am not the only one going through this... Correction WE are not the only ones dealing with this addiction.
I love her so so much. She is my everything.
My recovery is going still going well. I can increase my scripture study and I need to get things done at work. I am busy lately and have not been wasting a lot of time but I still have items that I have procrastinated way to long.
That is my brief entry for tonight.
Mountain
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Post by Mountain on Sept 12, 2007 4:14:24 GMT -5
Still going strong. I am on day 37 today
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Post by rockwell on Sept 12, 2007 13:38:42 GMT -5
Keep climbing up sunshine mountain, Mountain!
rockwell
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Post by Mountain on Sept 18, 2007 0:50:45 GMT -5
I hit 42 Days today
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Post by Mountain on Sept 18, 2007 15:36:44 GMT -5
Today is 43 days for me. I am shotting for 100 and beyond now. Things are going well generally.
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Post by unico on Sept 18, 2007 16:23:00 GMT -5
Mountain, when i started out I was afraid to even think about reaching 100 days porn free. You will with conviction reach 100 days and beyond. Take it one day at a time, achieve your 100 and then reassess - do you want to be counting thereafter?, or do you want to consider never using porn again - if the later you may find the book Rational Recovery of benefit. It offers an approach that differs from the 12 step method of being in 'recovery' thereafter. Anyway, however you proceed I wish you every success in tackling your addiction
Unico
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Post by Mountain on Sept 19, 2007 14:58:44 GMT -5
Thanks for the feedback. I do not want to be a counting person but now it does give me some strength. Thanks for the book idea.
I do know deep down that I can and will go 100 days and beyond. I Feel IT!
Things are still going well.
Mountain.
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