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Post by Mountain on Dec 7, 2006 16:26:47 GMT -5
Well I am on day 16 now and moving . I installed Bsafe on my PC again as well as set up my account abilty partner in CE. I have been ok.. I just thought it was a good Idea. My wife did too.
We are still moving forward. I like the board still and it helps but I need to use my time better. I need to use my internet time better period. The net can be such a waste of time where there is so much to get done in each of our lives.
I guess that something else to work on for me.
Well that is it for now. I am going to take my own advice and get busy doing something else.
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Post by Mountain on Dec 7, 2006 16:31:17 GMT -5
I guess I have not left yet. Just figured out that I can do a more detailed reply. I have been using the quick reply button every time and I spell bad too so I would copy that in word that correct errors and paste back in. I guess this will work a little easier.
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Post by Mountain on Dec 8, 2006 1:42:35 GMT -5
Well I made it through anther day at the office. Tonight was good to. Went out and did some service. Doing something for others always helps me. It helps to think about others rather than myself. One reason I like the board is reading others stories in the battle... I find my self thinking about them and praying for them. I even talk to my wife about some and she does that same.
We are all stronger when we help others. That is what Christ's life was all about serving.
I hope a can do a better job at serving. I am not looking for gratification for it. I do know it helps me and gives me strength.
I am off to bed and soon I will be checking in clean for yet another day of my journey. I have made the 100 day commitment and I am determined to get there and when I do... I will go beyond!
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Post by Mountain on Dec 10, 2006 23:25:49 GMT -5
I am still doing well. I had a good weekend with the family. I am almost to 3 weeks again!
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Post by MJ on Dec 11, 2006 20:51:43 GMT -5
Keep up the good work, Mountain! ---MJ
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Post by Mountain on Dec 13, 2006 1:58:44 GMT -5
I am at 3 weeks now!!!!
My recovery is going strong. I am going to hit 30 days and on.. I am going to hit that 100days I committed to.
I have been sharing a lot with my wife. It has been very helpful. I even share comments from the board and how I have responded. It has been healthy.
I am so glad she is so supportive. I love her so much and want to be the Man she deserves.
May the Lord bless me to be that MAN.
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Post by refrusloi on Dec 13, 2006 3:35:29 GMT -5
Thats awesome! keep it up
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Post by Mountain on Dec 15, 2006 0:39:25 GMT -5
23 days and counting!
I ams still going strong. I have a long ways to go but I feel the momentum building. Just need to keep it going. I still get the urges to just try it or just take a peek etc. but I am keeping away. It helps to write that commitment out again.
My wife is still very supportive and it has been helping a lot to communicate very openly with her.
This is a great time of year for me too. To focus on Christ and trying to give and serve others.
Well. I best get to bed.
I appreciate the kind words from those who have stopped by my Journal.
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Post by MJ on Dec 15, 2006 18:47:39 GMT -5
Great job, Mountain! I'm proud of you man! ---MJ
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Post by Mountain on Dec 15, 2006 22:15:24 GMT -5
Thanks for all of the support. I appreciate it very much.
24 days Clean. I am feeling good. I have been talking to my wife about what we are going to do when I hit the 100 day milestone in March. We are still undecided. I think it would be great just to get away with her for the weekend.
I am almost a quarter of the way there. Life is general is going pretty good. I am a little stressed out with work. I am behind in my numbers and we are at the year end. I need to improve the way I use my time.
It is so frustrating when I realize how my PA has set me back professional. I have waste so much time of the years and so many opportunities have passed me by.
I am really trying to improve my work. I like my job, I like the folks I work with and for. I like the industry. I just need to give it all I have got. I need to work on my habits and organization.
I know I can do it.
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Post by spottop on Dec 16, 2006 2:28:58 GMT -5
Mountain, Keep on with that desire you have to rid yourself of this junk. Evidently you and your wife know you can kick this stuff out of your life. Try not to get too frustrated and move on with the improvements you want to make, even if you have to take baby steps to attain your goals.
Prayers and Peace, spottop
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Post by Mountain on Dec 18, 2006 16:11:53 GMT -5
Tis the season to be clean. I am still doing well I am on day 27. I am feeling good too. Still a little stressed about work but Things will be fine. I need to get through this week and I think getting through the end off the year will not be bad. I am going out of town with my family of the Christmas Break. I am taking my family Skiing. We are all very excited.
I rarely have had any issues with my PA when I am away with my fam. Temptation is still there but the the circumstances don't allow things very easily.
I still need to be better about my prayers and scripture study.
So many was to improve and progress. I have been feeling a little challenges with the kids and patients are week. Then I think of how patient the Lord has been and is with me. WOW.
I am truly blessed. I have a great family and am blessed in so many ways. I have a lot of reasons to be grateful. I am also so grateful to the Lord for taking this from me. I know it is my job to keep giving it to him. I have to do my part but I know his hand is always extended to me to help and love me.
May he bless us all.
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Post by Mountain on Dec 20, 2006 16:24:24 GMT -5
Day 29. I am having a bit of a hard time today. Just keep getting the urge to just catch a Little something on like youtube. Just a little "real porn" pic or video. At least that is what the PA in me is saying. It is really getting to me. I not being to productive either today. I hate that I have this problem. I am making good progress and I do not want to fall. I do not want the pain of having to get up again. Having to confess to the board to my wife etc and move on again. I know that can happen but I do not want it to. I guess that is why I came out to the board.
I am going to pray.
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Post by MJ on Dec 20, 2006 16:37:21 GMT -5
Hang in there, Mountain. We're all here for you bud. ---MJ
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Post by spottop on Dec 21, 2006 4:14:07 GMT -5
Awesome post Mountain, Doesn't it feel great to give this garbage up to God. It sounds like things are going well for you for the most part. I just wanted to drop by and give a great big high five on your successful journey here on the board and with the Lord. God Blessspottop
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