timetochange
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Post by timetochange on Nov 23, 2007 5:03:11 GMT -5
Thanks mate So far, it's all going very well. No cravings whatsoever, and no tempting moments either. Of course, I know it won't always be this easy, so I need to be prepared for when things "step up". All the best with your own fight, William
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Post by timetochange on Nov 27, 2007 2:11:33 GMT -5
DAY 7
My journey to victory is still progressing well. I was tempted today, as I was all alone in the house for about six hours, but God gave me strength to endure. Somewhere in my mind, I just knew that p and mb were no longer "options". They were out of the equation - as simple as that!
I pray that everyone else is finding freedom from their past addictions.
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Post by timetochange on Nov 27, 2007 21:57:39 GMT -5
DAY 8
Thankyou God for getting me through safely thus far. Please continue giving me strength to endure, for your name and for your glory.
Amen.
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Post by timetochange on Nov 28, 2007 22:14:42 GMT -5
DAY 9
Things are starting to get hard. I feel like I've been run over by a truck, and I'm sure it's got something to do with my "withdrawal" symptoms I always get when I try to quit p. Still, I must soldier on. I do not want to give up now.
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Post by timetochange on Nov 29, 2007 7:49:53 GMT -5
DAY 9
Later...
An unexpected side-effect of my abstinence from p and mb has been a growth in confidence in social settings, particularly when dealing with women. I am rather surprised by this latest development, but I'm very glad that it's occuring.
Here's to greater and greater confidence in the future! ;D
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Post by timetochange on Dec 3, 2007 4:00:43 GMT -5
DAY 13
I'm still hanging in there. Some times are tougher than others, and I've been very busy lately. Thankfully, today has been an excellent day! I've spent a lot of time with the Lord, reading the Bible, praying and worshipping Him through music. Praise God that He has never given up on me!
My social confidence continues to grow. Over a number of events this weekend (including a wedding and wedding reception, a classical music concert and of course church on Sunday) I have seen a large improvement in my ability to cope with and relate to girls my own age. Often, I get "nervous" around girls, fidgeting, sweating and blushing, feeling awkward and generally not knowing what to say. Recently that has mostly disappeared. I'm finding myself being able to speak quite freely and naturally with women, and I'm surprised to say that they appear to be enjoying talking back to me. In fact, a few girls seemingly sought me out at church on Sunday for a conversation. This might sound fairly unimpressive to most people, but for me (a very shy and sensitive young man) it is a minor miracle!
Praise the Lord, and may His works continue in my life! If this is how my life can be from now on, I never want to go back to p again! I would much rather swap the false intimacy and false friendships of p with real-life friendships. What I have been experiencing these past few days is much more exciting!
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Post by timetochange on Dec 4, 2007 2:22:32 GMT -5
DAY 14
Another good day! Today would normally have been a time of dangerous temptation, as I was the only one here at my house between 10am and 5pm. However, today I experienced no real temptation whatsoever. To be honest, the thought of p and mb didn't even cross my mind. Given what I have been like in the past, this is truly amazing!
God is truly an awesome and amazing God!
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Post by timetochange on Dec 13, 2007 0:28:12 GMT -5
I managed to slip up last night So I'm back to Day 1 again. Why do I always have to fall? Is it because I love the ground? Or is it because I'm afraid of the sky?
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Post by tomlincolnsixecho on Dec 13, 2007 5:29:14 GMT -5
Hey timetochange. Keep at it mate. I believe well for me that my addictions/obsessions, directly corelate to my inability to socialize. I think generally like alcohol, the need to view porn, act out, comes from maybe fear, escaping from the things that seem so difficult. Everytime I slip up, my confidence slams to the floor, and when I'm not acting out, it climbs. but most often for me I give in when things get too hard, and then I turn to porn. Don't let this happen. Stay strong and work on building your confidence.
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Post by timetochange on Dec 23, 2007 1:43:40 GMT -5
Thanks mate I agree entirely with you. A lot of my problems have come from loneliness, isolation, etc. I use p and mb because I have low social confidence. However, p reduces my social confidence. Then, having lower social confidence, I use p again ... I think you probably get the idea ;D Hang in there mate. We can both get through this if we trust in God.
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Post by timetochange on Dec 23, 2007 1:48:40 GMT -5
This will be my last post in this journal. From now on I will post in my new journal, which can be found here at the new No Porn forums. All the best to everyone who has read or participated in this journal over these last few months. If I don't see you again, I pray you would find peace and prosperity wherever your life leads you. And if you are migrating like me to the new No Porn forums, I look forward to meeting you again! Looking up in hope ;D timetochange
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