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Post by 1dayatatime on Mar 13, 2007 12:38:27 GMT -5
We (my wife and I) have just returned from a vacation. We had a wonderful time and visited with her family.
Today I am at 25 days P free. My previous record was 192 days P free. I feel confident I will pass that mark
1dayatatime
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Post by 1dayatatime on Mar 14, 2007 12:46:58 GMT -5
I am angry today. There is too much callousness by some of the people on this forum. There are too many SOs attacking PAs. The Moderators, in my opinion, coddle a few vocal, meanspirited SOs. These few SOs attack others with impugnity.
There are precious few places for PAs to get help. To allow PAs to be run off of this forum, as some have been, is a disgrace. In my opinion there is a collision of purposes. The PAs need a safe place to be free to work out their recoveries. The SOs need a place to recover from their co-dependency. These two purposes can sometimes be in tension. When that happens here the result is one-sided. The needs of the SOs are favored. This angers me. Grrrr.
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Post by 1dayatatime on Mar 15, 2007 11:34:21 GMT -5
I am still angry about the treatment on people on this forum. I have been struggle against the urge to post regarding this in the General forum or the RA forum. Grrr...
My recovery is doing well. Day 27 since my last incidents. Better than that I am confident that I have adjusted my thinking patterns and the that relapses will not come. A relapse would be contrary to the new me. One thing that I have been working on this week is improving my "eye bouncing". Things are getting better, 1dayatatime.
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Post by ferdberfil on Mar 15, 2007 11:44:57 GMT -5
Hi 1dayatatime-
Congrats on the 25 days or so. Try not to let the anger over the SOs grab you. I think it was smart you kept it here. I've been in that boat myself.... I suppose it's best to realize that what the SOs say isn't really that important, but to understand where they are emotionally and what they've experienced is the key.
Nobody on these boards has a monopoly on truth (myself most definitely included). So no need to get caught up in it. Keep focusing on yourself.
Glad you had a nice vacation with your wife and her family! :-)
-FB
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Post by 1dayatatime on Mar 16, 2007 12:13:18 GMT -5
Another good day. I am still feeling confident and I am not having any major temptations at all.
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Post by 1dayatatime on Mar 19, 2007 11:31:20 GMT -5
Still doing fine. There were some minor temptations for MB over the weekedn, but nothing major.
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Post by 1dayatatime on Mar 20, 2007 13:43:36 GMT -5
Another purple day. Things are going well.
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Post by 1dayatatime on Mar 21, 2007 12:09:31 GMT -5
Another purple day.
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Post by 1dayatatime on Mar 22, 2007 11:28:42 GMT -5
In my life I have never had any other addictions other than P. Unlike other poor souls here I have never had compulsions or addictions with alcohol, drugs, food, smoking or any of the other common objects of addiction. I drink only on occasion now and for most of my life I didn't drink at all. When I drink I never have more than a single glass of wine. I have never even tried marijuana. I've never used drugs and even prefer non-pharmaceutical cures when I see the doctor. Food has never been a problem either. My diet is pretty good.
Anyway I was just thinking about it. It makes me feel more compassion for those here carrying the additional burdens of these kind of addictions.
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Post by 1dayatatime on Mar 23, 2007 9:42:08 GMT -5
I have had dreams which included some sexuality the past two nights. Don't know what that is about.
I am doing great. I am currently on day 35 of my latest run for the record. There have been some minor temptations the past couple of days. I have used these as prompting for creating some additional tools to overcome temptations.
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Post by 1dayatatime on Mar 26, 2007 11:02:32 GMT -5
A good weekend. I did bookkeeping, watched March Madness games on TV, and spent Sunday busting up concrete from the old garage footings. My Sweetie and I have booked the tickets for our upcoming vacation. My recovery is going well.
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Post by 1dayatatime on Mar 27, 2007 15:17:25 GMT -5
Another good day. 39 days P free
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Post by 1dayatatime on Mar 28, 2007 9:26:36 GMT -5
40 days, feeling sooo good.
I was thinking of starting a thread for tips in the General area. One tip I thought of was the feature of turning off graphics during Internet searchs. Most of the browser have a way to turn off graphics. The tip would be to use that when doing search to prevent unwanted images and triggers from displaying. I have done what should have been completely innocent searches before that had inappropriate results. Of course this is in addition to setting the preference in your search engine to the highest level for safe searches.
I was also thinking of posting regarding the abstraction spectrum of P. I think this might help SOs understand how there is a range of abstraction for PAs. From none to complete abstraction of the P object. Which might help them when dealing with insecurity about PAs fantasizing about others when they are intimate with them.
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Post by 1dayatatime on Mar 29, 2007 15:43:31 GMT -5
41 days. You know, one benefit of recovery is proving your critics wrong. It isn't really important as a benefit. But it doesn't hurt either.
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Post by 1dayatatime on Mar 30, 2007 12:50:28 GMT -5
42 days
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