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Post by C JaM on Dec 13, 2007 17:59:18 GMT -5
There might be a source of fear connected with the desire to view P.
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Post by charles515 on Dec 14, 2007 9:20:07 GMT -5
P: current steak: 1 days best streak: 64 days (new record) Cumulative total: 112 days since August 18, 2007.
P/VU4MB: 0 day best streak: 8 day S: 12 day best streak: 12 day
The feeling is gone. I am back to normal again. But that means nothing until I learn to deal with life head on and not use P as a coping mechanism.
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Post by C JaM on Dec 14, 2007 18:38:26 GMT -5
Yes I have to learn to cope with stresses in a different way. I've been using P for decades. I still trick myself into thinking it's harmless.
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Post by C JaM on Dec 15, 2007 9:13:46 GMT -5
I say to myself, "When I get my new gf things will change, I'll stop P." But I know it's a lie.
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Post by charles515 on Dec 15, 2007 14:21:36 GMT -5
P: current steak: 2 days best streak: 64 days (new record) Cumulative total: 113 days since August 18, 2007.
P/VU4MB: 1 day best streak: 8 day S: 13 day best streak: 13 day
Well it looks I have a new GF and right now I don't want P because I am not in the cycle. But when I start my new job in January and I am still with her, will I want to use P? Most likely. Having a GB won't be enough because I won't see her every day. But since I know what will happen, maybe, just maybe, I'll be able to handle it when it comes because I will know what the source will be. Since I know what the source will be I hope be in a better position to deal with it.
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Post by C JaM on Dec 16, 2007 10:50:36 GMT -5
I am going on a date today but it might be canceled because of the weather, will I watch P if it is? God I give my will to you!
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Post by charles515 on Dec 16, 2007 19:57:41 GMT -5
P: current steak: 3 days best streak: 64 days (new record) Cumulative total: 114 days since August 18, 2007.
P/VU4MB: 2 day best streak: 8 day S: 14 day best streak: 14 day
It's looking good with my new girl. We had a good weekend. I wish I hadn't looked at all that P this week. While I was still excited when I was with her, I believe I would have experienced more pleasure if I hadn't indulged. If I can do this, this will be the first time I will have a GF without looking at P in the relationship. And maybe it will make it easier for me to see who she really is and not an outlet for my addiction.
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Post by charles515 on Dec 17, 2007 14:20:10 GMT -5
P: current steak: 4 days best streak: 64 days (new record) Cumulative total: 115 days since August 18, 2007.
P/VU4MB: 3 day best streak: 8 day S: 15 day best streak: 15 day
I still wish I hadn't seen all that P last week. I remember how it lowers my sexual desire after the first time with someone new. Sex couldn't be enjoyable unless there was something "exciting" about it other than the sex.
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Post by C JaM on Dec 17, 2007 18:16:57 GMT -5
Yes, I think I had the same problem. Something similar.
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Post by charles515 on Dec 18, 2007 9:43:22 GMT -5
P: current steak: 5 days best streak: 64 days (new record) Cumulative total: 116 days since August 18, 2007.
P/VU4MB: 0 day best streak: 8 day S: 16 day best streak: 16 day
One of the lingering effects for of P is I try to find "excitement" from anywhere else. I was reading the newspaper and any attractive girl in a picture or a story of a sexual nature, I would zero in on. I had to remember to turn it off like I did last week. It's a technique I learned 2 weeks ago that seems to be impossible to do when I indulge in P and a few days afterwards.
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Post by C JaM on Dec 18, 2007 21:11:17 GMT -5
keep on truckin'
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Post by charles515 on Dec 19, 2007 8:49:10 GMT -5
P: current steak: 6 days best streak: 64 days (new record) Cumulative total: 117 days since August 18, 2007.
P/VU4MB: 1 day best streak: 8 day S: 17 day best streak: 17 day
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Post by C JaM on Dec 19, 2007 20:12:56 GMT -5
well my mind seems calm tonight. But that doesn't mean anything. It's like an excuse, but the truth is there's lot's of work to do and I can't do it alone. I can't close God out of my life the way I always do.
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Post by charles515 on Dec 20, 2007 9:21:02 GMT -5
P: current steak: 7 days best streak: 64 days (new record) Cumulative total: 118 days since August 18, 2007.
P/VU4MB: 2 day best streak: 8 day S: 18 day best streak: 18 day
I notice sometimes I am tired but I don't want to go to bed. I just waste about 30 minutes surfing. I don't know why I do that. But if I keep surfing I would end up going to a P site because I run out of places to go to. Why can't I just go to bed when I am tired? I think it's a habit.
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Post by C JaM on Dec 20, 2007 17:38:39 GMT -5
I think P lurks in the back of my mind. I never white knuckle it when the feeling arises. I used to force myslef to leave the house and do something else because the urges were that strong. I wish I'd do that again except this time without shutting God out.
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