C JaM
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Post by C JaM on Dec 5, 2007 20:12:24 GMT -5
Feeling OK today. I can face the challenges.
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Post by charles515 on Dec 6, 2007 12:55:48 GMT -5
P: current steak: 60 days best streak: 60 days (new record) Cumulative total: 108 days since August 18, 2007.
P/VU4MB: 4 day best streak: 4 day S: 4 day best streak: 4 day
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C JaM
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Post by C JaM on Dec 6, 2007 21:23:20 GMT -5
Feeling ok. I can shake it.
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Post by charles515 on Dec 7, 2007 16:20:35 GMT -5
P: current steak: 61 days best streak: 61 days (new record) Cumulative total: 109 days since August 18, 2007.
P/VU4MB: 5 day best streak: 5 day S: 5 day best streak: 5 day
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C JaM
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Post by C JaM on Dec 7, 2007 19:00:42 GMT -5
Doing OK, thoughts were there, just shake em'
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Post by C JaM on Dec 8, 2007 9:06:54 GMT -5
feeling decent.
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Post by charles515 on Dec 8, 2007 10:11:27 GMT -5
P: current steak: 62 days best streak: 62 days (new record) Cumulative total: 110 days since August 18, 2007.
P/VU4MB: 6 day best streak: 6 day S: 6 day best streak: 6 day
I don't think I will have any stress triggers for the next 4 weeks. It's after that where there could be a problem.
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Post by charles515 on Dec 9, 2007 9:51:43 GMT -5
P: current steak: 63 days best streak: 63 days (new record) Cumulative total: 111 days since August 18, 2007.
P/VU4MB: 7 day best streak: 7 day S: 7 day best streak: 7 day
Ever since I learned how to turn off my reaction to any picture of any attractive woman, I've been feeling "normal."
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Post by charles515 on Dec 10, 2007 10:10:06 GMT -5
P: current steak: 64 days best streak: 64 days (new record) Cumulative total: 111 days since August 18, 2007.
P/VU4MB: 8 day best streak: 8 day S: 8 day best streak: 8 day
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C JaM
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Post by C JaM on Dec 10, 2007 21:33:31 GMT -5
still here.
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Post by charles515 on Dec 11, 2007 10:12:53 GMT -5
P: current steak: 0 days best streak: 64 days (new record) Cumulative total: 111 days since August 18, 2007.
P/VU4MB: 0 day best streak: 8 day S: 9 day best streak: 9 day
I was afraid you left Cjam. Why I would want to look at P after I meet someone who I like and we could go further, I have no idea. I think it may be because I feel that I wouldn't be with this girl if I hadn't been looking at P. So that should give me more reason not to look. I don't know. I still need to learn how not to transmute stress or feelings of distress into P. Let's say what today brings.
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Post by C JaM on Dec 11, 2007 19:00:51 GMT -5
wow I must of missed a day. Still here though. It's gonna work. I am afraid that if I say I'll take care of this problem later and put it off it will come to haunt me if I get into a meaningful relationship. Gotta make that 100 days...
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Post by charles515 on Dec 12, 2007 9:11:10 GMT -5
P: current steak: 0 days best streak: 64 days (new record) Cumulative total: 111 days since August 18, 2007.
P/VU4MB: 0 day best streak: 8 day S: 10 day best streak: 10 day
Okay, two days is too much. I've been fine all day until the end of the day. I think it treat as some kind of reward for studying all day. I woke up energetic to get back on track, but I've given in before I go to bed. The prospects of this new girl looks great so why would I want to screw it up by looking at P all day? It may be because I have done that so often when I was with GF's, it may be a reaction. It can't happen again.
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Post by C JaM on Dec 13, 2007 8:22:20 GMT -5
still here. Still think I need a spritual shift in my mind to realize P is bad.
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Post by charles515 on Dec 13, 2007 10:17:35 GMT -5
P: current steak: 0 days best streak: 64 days (new record) Cumulative total: 111 days since August 18, 2007.
P/VU4MB: 0 day best streak: 8 day S: 11 day best streak: 11 day
I think I see my pattern more clearly now. Something will trigger me to want to use P. I may not know what it is but I think it has something to do with being in new situations: new job, new GF, new responsibilities, new semester, upcoming situation, stress. Then I will indulge in a while experiencing that rush, excitement. Then either I continue to see more movies and it becomes a habit or I stop the cycle and go on a period of no P. That will continue until something else triggers it.
I know that when the urge comes, it's my way of dealing with the new situation. So how do I stop that? Is it my way of not dealing with the situation? If it is, what do I need to do to deal with the situation effectively? I know what is there but maybe I need to explore what I am trying to avoid.
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