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Post by Mayberry on Dec 19, 2007 21:46:09 GMT -5
Dagnabit, JohnG, if I light any more (symbolic) candles for you, I am in serious danger of burning the place down. I voiced your name again, aloud, tonight in Healing Worship, with the particular request that you end your walkabout and come back home. J
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Post by Mayberry on Dec 21, 2007 19:22:54 GMT -5
Brother: I've had a damned rough few days here, and I wish you were around to chat with. Come on home. Jinn
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Post by dazednconfused on Dec 21, 2007 19:34:35 GMT -5
JOhn, please come back, and boogie in before we move. "Your old house" needs to come to the new board. Jinn, how about a trip to spain? We've seen enough pictures and I am sure we could figure out with spanish countryside he is on?
Prayers continuing for you John
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Post by Mayberry on Dec 22, 2007 7:49:59 GMT -5
Dazed: My husband and I are both ready and willing to travel to Spain. I believe I have JohnG's address somewhere 'round here; we could probably just camp out and wait for him? Mr. Mayberry keeps mumbling about the great red-legged partridges to be found over there. Personally, I just want to get a better look at the mysterious picture on the second floor of JohnG's house that I got glimpses of in the "This Old House" thread. JohnG: COME HOME!!!!!!!! TEJ
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Post by Mayberry on Dec 23, 2007 7:07:33 GMT -5
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Almost reads like a poem, doesn't it?
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Friend John, I hope to see you soon on this board, or the new board.
I am holding you in prayer.
TEJ (who is no longer a tribal elder on the new board...which is a great relief to her...as you know she never enjoyed being a tribal elder in the first place).
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Post by Mayberry on Dec 25, 2007 6:58:41 GMT -5
Happy Christmas, JohnG, wherever you are in this wide world. I'm wishing you well, and I hope to "see" you here soon. TEJ
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Post by Mayberry on Dec 28, 2007 7:12:56 GMT -5
This is truly my final attempt to reach you for further comment. To the new board I wander; as I go, I will ponder: "Are JohnG's fingers encased in cement?"
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I still am praying for you, and it is my earnest hope to see you on the new board, and soon. Be thou well, friend, and more than well. J
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Post by soulworker on Jan 15, 2008 13:19:32 GMT -5
Haven't been here in a ... long time! But I've still been working my SA program, with a new sponsor, an AA Big Book guy, who's great.
He and I have discussed "sobriety dates" -- the date we each stopped "using," according to the SA Sobriety Definition. He's not so keen on them, though we agree they have their place.
So John G -- if you ever read this -- and for anyone else who does -- do you know what is the only sobriety date that matters?
It's today. Just for today.
Yesterday is gone, the bell is tolled, it can't be un-rung. Tomorrow doesn't exist, and it never, ever has. The only thing that we have is right now, today, and that's all you ever need to worry about being sober for.
And you know what else? If you're sober TODAY, then you win the Heisman Trophy of sobriety. You're the FA Cup Champion. It's the World Series, and the Super Bowl and the World Cup, and you just bowled 300. If you're sober TODAY, then you are #1 on the varsity team.
I'm not spouting platitudes, this isn't BS. Read Eckart Tolle's _The Power of Now_, and he'll tell you the same. All we have is this moment, and the more time you spend worrying about the future or regretting the past, the more time you spend in any time but NOW, is the more time you're behaving insanely. How can you be any place but NOW, if only NOW exists? Get real, get sane, be HERE now!
Then just be sober while you're here. Are you acting out now? Good! Great! So relax, you're doing fine. Keep it up!
-- Tom Recovering sexaholic, who feels sad when someone disappears from recovery.
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Post by patterson on Jan 15, 2008 17:55:26 GMT -5
JohnG,
I can here it over the loudspeaker.
"JohnG, your wanted at the new board".
Please dont think for a moment about letting anyone down. That's their crap to deal with. We only need to deal with ours and you have been a tower of strength and commitment to recovery, whereever you are with sobriety.
I can hear it again.
"JohnG, your wanted on the new board"
Sober or not. I dont care. I just want you there.
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Post by Mayberry on Jan 17, 2008 15:57:01 GMT -5
Yep. Me too. Where in the SAM HELL are you? I miss you.
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Post by JohnG on Jan 31, 2008 14:33:23 GMT -5
I have not even begun to read the many posts in my journal. I am not well obviously and am just going to post in order to get my foot back in the door. I apologize to all those who have been worried about me. Please forgive me.
Mayberry, I am glad to see your posts above - I will read them soon. Right now I just need to make this post and leave it at that.
JohnG
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Post by JohnG on Jan 31, 2008 15:50:25 GMT -5
I may just hide here for a bit. I am scared of going to the new board as I suspect I will draw some attention and right now I am not sure what I am doing. I just decided rather abruptly to come back - it was not something I had contemplated doing today though I always knew I would come back... I just saw an old email from a friend here and then I thought I should log on and yet a part of me fought that idea heartily. I know that coming back here means doing some work and I really don't want to do any work. But some part of my mind said, "why not now?" I became aware of the actual fear I felt at the thought of coming back here.
But I really want to have a good life someday. And that won't just fall into my lap.
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Post by JohnG on Jan 31, 2008 18:09:25 GMT -5
I am going to bed now. I like that there is a total silence here right now. I used to hate it when it was slow on the board but right now this loneliness suits me just fine. While I was studying law, the school opened a brand new library. I found a way to access the old library and used it to work in - and I was always completely alone in this large building that for so many years had housed so many people as they researched and studied. But for the time that I was there alone, it was just for me.
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Post by Curious Voyager on Jan 31, 2008 20:51:18 GMT -5
G'nite JohnG
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Post by Mayberry on Jan 31, 2008 22:35:24 GMT -5
Good night, friend.
(PS: I do hope you will find time to read the truly awful limericks we posted in your absence. You started a fad without knowing it. Be well, and know that you are loved.)
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15 March 2008
JohnG: please get your butt onto the new board. Please? Damnit! Thank you. Jinn
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