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Post by witness on Oct 26, 2005 20:44:47 GMT -5
I don't know how many times I've said it in the past, more than 100 I'm sure, that I am making a fresh start.
Things could be much worse. I have not spent money to see sexual material. My family doesn't know. etc.
But it is so bad to have a secret life. I am ready for a clean break and not to fall down again.
I hope that this site and those of you who use it can help me.
So, with the Lord's help, I say once again. Today is the first day of the rest of my life.
May He who gives me strength today, do so tomorrow, and so on, one day at a time.
No viewing INTERNET sites, TV scenes, etc. And I pray over time that images in my mind will be erased as well. There is so much more to life.
If I would just follow the advice I give to others I would be in great shape.
Lord, forgive me, change me, break me, hold me, strengthen me.
Thanks for giving me one more chance!
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Post by witness on Oct 27, 2005 8:24:45 GMT -5
One more day to use for what is good and right and true. I'm glad I found this site. Two people have already sent me personal messages. Thanks!
I feel hopeful. But I know I can never let down my guard. Control and resist for one more day. That gives me reason for optimism!
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Post by lizardking on Oct 27, 2005 8:32:31 GMT -5
Welcome aboard, witness...
I hope you find all of those things in the future and that you can stay clean and gain your freedom. This board can help you a whole lot, as I have found out. By taking it simply one day at a time, you are definitely on the right track.
Good luck,
LizardKing
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Post by muststop on Oct 27, 2005 22:03:07 GMT -5
see my post below... i messed this one up a bit
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Post by muststop on Oct 27, 2005 22:09:59 GMT -5
Witness
I was where you are 40 days ago, finally had enough after trying maybe 100 times before to quit. Looks like its happening now. Some practical tips that are working for me and maybe you can try too:
- make a business-like decision that P is a road to destruction and that you have to stay off it no matter how much the bright lights of it beckon
- try not to ogle. Don't look at a woman that you are not talking to for longer than a second or two and keep eyes up ( this may take a conscious effort)
- when thoughts come into your head, chase them and move on
the above are helping me to stop acting out. Recovery can start now. Good luck
must
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Post by witness on Oct 28, 2005 4:58:44 GMT -5
One more day. One more victory with His help!
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Post by Stillhopeful on Oct 28, 2005 5:10:40 GMT -5
Well done! Keep up the good work!  What is your strategy other than stopping? You should look at your entire life. What do you want to do with your life in the future? What type of person do you want to be? This is an opportunity to turn your life around, for the better! Still (SO) |
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Post by witness on Oct 28, 2005 15:37:44 GMT -5
Those questions are very helpful. I do long for deeper changes and closer relationships with the people I love and who love me.
Thanks!
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Post by witness on Oct 28, 2005 19:29:35 GMT -5
I'm feeling kind of down. It is interesting to analyze myself. This is the kind of moment when I'm here in front of the computer that I would be tempted to look where I shouldn't.
Glad to have this outlet. I'm going to go get some sleep here in a bit.
This is day 3 and I do not plan to turn back. Lord, keep me faithful!
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Post by witness on Oct 29, 2005 10:44:27 GMT -5
I have been very pleased with the help I have received from other members. Thanks!
Questions like "Why? What is at the root of this problem?" and others encouraging me to have a "plan of action". These have been very helpful.
Day 4 is going well so far. Praise the Lord!
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Post by witness on Oct 30, 2005 13:15:55 GMT -5
"CLEAN" Sounds good! Looks good! Feels good!
I plan to stay that way!
Day 5 is going well, so far.
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Post by witness on Oct 31, 2005 9:57:56 GMT -5
I just saw this and thought someone else might like to see it.
A guilty conscience is a great blessing, but only if it drives us to come home.
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Post by witness on Nov 1, 2005 6:49:15 GMT -5
Day 7 begins!
I'm glad I found this board. I really appreciate all of you out there for sharing ideas, strategies, etc.
I just read this on a post by BlackSpiral, who I noticed has been around for a while. I thought it described the situation so accurately:
Porn in this regard is a lot like throwing yourself off a cliff. You get a great rush all the way down, right until you smash into the rocks and get totally messed up. But in all seriousness, who would throw themselves off a cliff for the rush of the fall?
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Post by lizardking on Nov 1, 2005 9:12:04 GMT -5
You're doing great, witness...
I'm following your journal and keeping up with you. Best of luck at 'fighting the good fight' and 'staying the course'.
LizardKing
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Post by witness on Nov 2, 2005 5:51:34 GMT -5
Day 8.
I'm working on changing habits. Turning off the TV. Going to bed earlier. Looking away. Thinking about other things. I must "flee from all appearances of evil".
I read this yesterday.
"I believe and I doubt, I hope and get discouraged. To live by grace means to acknowledge my whole life story, the light side and the dark side. In admitting my shadow side I learn who I am and what God's grace means."
Staying clean for one more day, by His Grace!
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