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Post by JohnG on Mar 31, 2007 19:25:09 GMT -5
VR report - heard the voice briefly while sitting on the couch watching TV. There was nothing triggering on - it just came into my head and said that having a fantasy in bed later wouldn't be so bad as long as I didn't touch myself. WTF? Where does this stuff come from?
JohnG
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Post by gerry on Apr 1, 2007 1:29:30 GMT -5
the voice? you heard voices too? damn! I tough I was the only one!
I hear many voices... some tells me bad things, some just make bad jockes (or... that's me?), but I hear one nice voice too, all the time... it's Jesus telling me what to do and I preffer to listen to Him.
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Post by iwanttoquit on Apr 1, 2007 5:34:30 GMT -5
just checking some stuff out for work, and the voice butted in and said "hey, there's no one else in the house.. just you and me. We haven't been spending much quality time together recently have we? in fact it's almost like you were avoiding me. Wouldn't it be nice to make for lost time?" !
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Post by JohnG on Apr 1, 2007 7:22:48 GMT -5
I don't know what is going on these days - I am hearing the voice alot. I have had a few days of stress between the trip north and conversations with my ex-GF and have been tired to boot. Maybe that is it. When I got in bed last night the voice was there again - just a fantasy - this is my weak point aparently and it knows it won't get me to masturbate or look at porn directly - it tries to convince me to entertain fantasies - not even porn - just thinking about past women in my life and sexual experiences I have had with them. This is EXTREMELY TEMPTING. But fatal to my sobriety. It will lead me to MB and then to P.
Report filed.
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Post by brad777 on Apr 1, 2007 9:28:34 GMT -5
Damn!! I woke up Sunday morning with the worst urges. I just played a very successful game of rugby and finished up a hard week of work. The voice is so strong now cause it makes me feel I deserve to act out after such a long week. But this is exactly how I keep relapsing. I hold off for several days and after I finish something important and get a chance to rest..... "come on, you deserve it. Take a break and tomorrow you can hold off again" I'm sure this is going to be a struggle for the rest of the day now.
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Post by So_fedup on Apr 1, 2007 9:46:44 GMT -5
the voice? you heard voices too? damn! I tough I was the only one! I hear many voices... some tells me bad things, some just make bad jockes (or... that's me?), but I hear one nice voice too, all the time... it's Jesus telling me what to do and I preffer to listen to Him. Gerry Man,,,,,,,,,,, I have missed you... I have missed your very Savvy, enlightening , wonderful Post. How the heck have you been Man ? SFU
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Post by So_fedup on Apr 1, 2007 9:54:02 GMT -5
Well, I am hearing another Voice today.... And its that Voice that SO's hear.. You see, My husband is moving to Russia today for 2 months to work at the Embassy in Moscow. And of Course, if you are an SO, you can imagine the Voice that is screamming out at me. Don't trust him. He is leaving again for 2 months, you know you can't trust him. I CAN'T DO this to myself again. I can't allow myself to sabatoge myself, and before he is even gone, start telling myself these messages. ACK !!!! LET IT GO SFU... LET IT GO............ LET HIM GO, and do not be angry with him. Just let him go, and do not be upset with him before he is even gone. Just let it go... breathe in, and out.. gooood.... now, take him to the airport.... breathe..........................
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Post by iwanttoquit on Apr 1, 2007 12:20:20 GMT -5
... The voice is so strong now cause it makes me feel I deserve to act out after such a long week.. exactly the same here. I very nearly slipped, the voice said "you're doing work on a Sunday.. and you've done loads of work this whole week, isn't it time we spent some time together on 'our' favourite websites". on another note, giving this voice a separate identity to my own is making me feel wierd. Like that thing in Lord of The Rings ("master despises us, let's kill him and get the ring, errr, porn")
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Post by rockwell on Apr 2, 2007 10:16:32 GMT -5
It is a new week. Let us not give the voice a foothold this week. Rebuke him, punch him in the face! He has no power over us!!! VICTORY this week!
rockwell
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Post by ladybug71 on Apr 2, 2007 16:02:58 GMT -5
Here's my "voice" report... it's been yammerin' at me all day.
I have work to do but the voice is telling me various things and trying to convince me that I can look at P instead, that I can avoid the unpleasantness of work in order to just go do some exploring.
Here's how I'm fighting it:
#1) make myself stick to my current task #2) went on a walk #3) come here
#3 may seem like a good solution, but I notice that by so doing, I'm still avoiding work. I am going to try to keep forcing #1.
stupid voice - what do you know?
Somebody said that "saying no" to the voice is kind of like developing a new muscle. It feels kind of strange and not terribly natural, but it gets easier with practice. Well, I'm getting good practice today.
stupid voice.... just shut up, would ya?
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Post by kundalini on Apr 4, 2007 3:01:57 GMT -5
This morning my mind said' would'nt it feel good to watch some p just to relieve some stress'. It was so clear,and I knew I was not going to let it trick me into thiking it was a good idea. I just revoked it and got straight up out of my bed to meditate and the urge went away. I've also taken up a rubberband so if a bad thought comes into my head I immediately dispel it and then hit my wrist with the rubber band real hard, just as a sort of punishment.
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Post by dtchange on Apr 4, 2007 8:05:46 GMT -5
I have to say I hear the voice this morning. I am not listening today. I am free of the secrets and don't want to be in that position again.
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Post by Webmaster on Apr 5, 2007 19:18:53 GMT -5
Stupid voice ruined a perfectly good Elvis song because it got me thinking about one of his movie co-stars. Then the Voice actually disguised itself as the co-star and engaged me in a conversation. I got about a minute into our flirtatious discussion when I recognized the voice, yanked off it's Ann-Margaret mask and revealed the hideous, snarling drooling monster underneath. I'm glad to report that the Beast was looking quite starved. I sent it back to its cage. It tried whining but gave up that when I reminded it that I never use porn or masturbate now.
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Post by rockwell on Apr 9, 2007 12:11:17 GMT -5
BOOKMARK THIS PAGE! REPORT THE VOICE OFTEN!
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Post by JohnG on Apr 9, 2007 13:16:20 GMT -5
I struggled with the voice last friday night. It wanted me to fantasize. I fell asleep praying.
I am so tired of this. When will it end?
I am feeling sorry for myself today. Don't pay me any attention.
JonnG
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