Post by addict70 on Dec 20, 2007 21:22:14 GMT -5
Ooooohhh sh-t. I have a problem.
I just got off the phone. Some old friends I'm seeing, with best intentions wanna take me to a strip club when I fly to see them this weekend. All paid for all set, best intentions, What the holy flying (expletive)!
(expletive) (expletive) (expletive) (expletive) (expletive)!!!!
Nobody knows about this! What the hell am I supposed to do? If I say no I'm gonna hurt their feelings! I cant even think up a decent excuse! AAAAAAHHHHH!!!
(expletive) (expletive) (expletive) (expletive) (expletive)!!!
Strip clubs were never my schtick. But yeah, like I'm not going to be (expletive)ing triggered in there! What the (expletive) am I supposed to do? Look at the (expletive)ing ground the whole time! (expletive) (expletive) (expletive)!!!
Why does this happen now? What the (expletive)? WHAT THE (expletive)!!!!
SSSSHHHHIIIIIITTTT!!!!
Dude yeah I can take my responsibility for my (expletive), but I'm not a (expletive)ing zen master! AAAAWWW FUUUUUCCCKKK!!!
I'm freaked. I wanna smash something. I'm laughing because it's funny. What the holy hell do I do now?
OK, I'm gonna do some thinking outloud here.
Option A - The obvious choice. A simple "No". I'm gonna feel like a total a$$hole, hurt some good peoples feelings and spend the whole trip catching sh-t and being asked "why why why? Dude we're paying. You're a free man? We used to do this all the time back in the day. Come on dont be a p-ssy!" This is forcing me to have to act like some high and mighty jackass. "No because it degrades women, bla bla bla" I dont talk like that. What the holy hell! Tell the truth "No because I spank it to porn all the time and I'm trying to quit" ooohh please
Option B - Go. Really really bad for me. I'll be 3000 miles from anywhere I can act out, or at least will act out, but that'll definately take me back to day one. Just because it's a real woman in front of me does'nt make it any different than P. And sh-t I wanna go. Of course I want to go. Every cell of my being wants to go, I want to see my old buddies before having to be smothered by my family for days, but this sh-t could f-ck my recovery up hardcore! I know what happens in those sh-t holes!
I have to must must must tell them I dont want to go. I have to take all the sh-t I'm going to get and piss off all my old friends and go down in their history as some weird stuck up a$$hole. My trip is f-cked now. I have nothing to look forward too. Oh man, I dont have this in me. If you'll excuse me I'm going to go roll into the fetal position and punch myself in the face.
I just got off the phone. Some old friends I'm seeing, with best intentions wanna take me to a strip club when I fly to see them this weekend. All paid for all set, best intentions, What the holy flying (expletive)!
(expletive) (expletive) (expletive) (expletive) (expletive)!!!!
Nobody knows about this! What the hell am I supposed to do? If I say no I'm gonna hurt their feelings! I cant even think up a decent excuse! AAAAAAHHHHH!!!
(expletive) (expletive) (expletive) (expletive) (expletive)!!!
Strip clubs were never my schtick. But yeah, like I'm not going to be (expletive)ing triggered in there! What the (expletive) am I supposed to do? Look at the (expletive)ing ground the whole time! (expletive) (expletive) (expletive)!!!
Why does this happen now? What the (expletive)? WHAT THE (expletive)!!!!
SSSSHHHHIIIIIITTTT!!!!
Dude yeah I can take my responsibility for my (expletive), but I'm not a (expletive)ing zen master! AAAAWWW FUUUUUCCCKKK!!!
I'm freaked. I wanna smash something. I'm laughing because it's funny. What the holy hell do I do now?
OK, I'm gonna do some thinking outloud here.
Option A - The obvious choice. A simple "No". I'm gonna feel like a total a$$hole, hurt some good peoples feelings and spend the whole trip catching sh-t and being asked "why why why? Dude we're paying. You're a free man? We used to do this all the time back in the day. Come on dont be a p-ssy!" This is forcing me to have to act like some high and mighty jackass. "No because it degrades women, bla bla bla" I dont talk like that. What the holy hell! Tell the truth "No because I spank it to porn all the time and I'm trying to quit" ooohh please
Option B - Go. Really really bad for me. I'll be 3000 miles from anywhere I can act out, or at least will act out, but that'll definately take me back to day one. Just because it's a real woman in front of me does'nt make it any different than P. And sh-t I wanna go. Of course I want to go. Every cell of my being wants to go, I want to see my old buddies before having to be smothered by my family for days, but this sh-t could f-ck my recovery up hardcore! I know what happens in those sh-t holes!
I have to must must must tell them I dont want to go. I have to take all the sh-t I'm going to get and piss off all my old friends and go down in their history as some weird stuck up a$$hole. My trip is f-cked now. I have nothing to look forward too. Oh man, I dont have this in me. If you'll excuse me I'm going to go roll into the fetal position and punch myself in the face.