Post by pac2544 on Dec 17, 2007 16:09:29 GMT -5
My last slip was on Saturday the 15th. It actually started on Friday night and spilled over inot Saturday morning. I got up at 5 am and looked at p and mbed until 7 am. Then I talked with a friend online but I didn't admit my slip to her. I felt bad about it because she really likes me and I am using p to avoid life and relationships.
So I have been clean for two days. I saw on the main page that Pacman is headed for his one year anniversary. Thats great for him. His screen name and mine are similar. I hope I can have a one year anniversary around this time next year. That would be the longest I have ever gone w/o p since I was 13 years old.
My life really isn't that bad now, but I shun close relationships. Group helps a lot, but I find it hard to move beyond staying clean more than a few weeks. By keeping people away I allow myself to have time to use porn. So tonight I am going to the gym for a while.
I haven't been posting here as much. I began to spend a lot of time on this board and sometimes the hours on the internet would lead to viewing porn. So my plan is to do what i have to do online and then get off the computer. Its a wonderful tool, but I use it for more than research and education. So I am limiting myself to 30 minutes and no more.
I would like to have someone set my K-9 filter password for me. I think that would help. But since I haven't told any one close to me about my addiction i am still searching for someone to do it for me. Well, I got myself into this problem, i can deal with it on my own for a while longer until I have the guts to tell my close friends.
PAC
So I have been clean for two days. I saw on the main page that Pacman is headed for his one year anniversary. Thats great for him. His screen name and mine are similar. I hope I can have a one year anniversary around this time next year. That would be the longest I have ever gone w/o p since I was 13 years old.
My life really isn't that bad now, but I shun close relationships. Group helps a lot, but I find it hard to move beyond staying clean more than a few weeks. By keeping people away I allow myself to have time to use porn. So tonight I am going to the gym for a while.
I haven't been posting here as much. I began to spend a lot of time on this board and sometimes the hours on the internet would lead to viewing porn. So my plan is to do what i have to do online and then get off the computer. Its a wonderful tool, but I use it for more than research and education. So I am limiting myself to 30 minutes and no more.
I would like to have someone set my K-9 filter password for me. I think that would help. But since I haven't told any one close to me about my addiction i am still searching for someone to do it for me. Well, I got myself into this problem, i can deal with it on my own for a while longer until I have the guts to tell my close friends.
PAC