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Post by iwillconquerthis on Feb 22, 2005 10:19:02 GMT -5
Im definitely in. There should be some kind of message board highlihted and specifically so all those trying to stay clear of porn could log in and unite with others who are also taking a day-by-day approach to dealing with their porn addiction. For instance, i could tell people i have avoided porn for 6 days (which i have) (flip it is so good to be able to write that) whilst others could tell me that they are on day 7. We could use the designate web-page to support each other in our day-by-day approach. What do people think?
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Post by marillion on Feb 22, 2005 10:40:52 GMT -5
I had a good 3-day weekend. I am not 'hungry' for porn at this point. I am clean from it since February 17. I have had recollections of the latest images, but I have not dwelt on them long. The real test for me will be in about 3 0r 4 weeks when the temptations become almost unbearable.
But I am clean since last Thursday.
M
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Post by Padraig on Feb 22, 2005 10:43:45 GMT -5
On day 12 & the storm clouds are gathering. It feels like it's going to be a whiteknuckler today. Some days have been so easy others not so easy. Today by far, I find myself in the fiercest battle to date. Any words of encourgement would be helpful. Please pray for us all in this struggle.
Slan,
Padraig
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Phi 4:13 I am capable of doing all things through Christ, the One strengthening me.
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Post by stikint on Feb 22, 2005 10:50:48 GMT -5
Padraig
Eden is just over those mountains....
1) You can slip - its not so bad. You'll have a great time and a great escape from reality... BUT afterwards you'll feel horrible. You'll have to start again from day 0 (behind me, cause I'm on day 5 ;-)). You'll have to tell us about it and feel ashamed.
2) You can hold on and get over this rough patch. You'll feel great because tomorrow you can write day 13, ahead of me by a whole week.
Hope you'll choose the latter ;-) Rgds
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Post by iwillconquerthis on Feb 22, 2005 11:58:23 GMT -5
Al, if you read this, i quit on 17th Feb. I'm not quite going to make 100 days by May 25th but can i join your list. It'll mean a slightly shorter period for me but it would be great knowing i am participating in the same challenge (i mean getting to May 25th without looking at p**n).
Best wishes,
I Will Conquer This
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Post by M386 on Feb 22, 2005 12:20:17 GMT -5
Well, OK, I'll join in. I've got a good start on 100 days, but I'll aim for May 25th too.
Good luck everyone.
M386
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stikint
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Post by stikint on Feb 22, 2005 15:23:10 GMT -5
the floor is so-o-o-o-o-o-ooo slippey right now... it's 23:17 and i'm alone on the net in front of the pc. this is so not a good time to B here! ... and I really, really really want to... just a quick peek, so easy.
so, i think i'm rather go off to bed... else someone's not going to get his comfy chair!! :-)
Cheers all, be sober... just for today!!
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Post by a day at a time on Feb 22, 2005 15:32:41 GMT -5
Day 005
It snowed all day Went to work (tree pruning) House work done (tidy up the fridge & put the clean laundry in the closet) Meditation done (10 mn) GTR practice done (30mn) Web design practice done (20 mn) Typing practice done (10 mn) Letter to a friend (10 mn) – I’ve been writing this letter for so long. A little bit every day will get it done some time instead of perpetually postponing it. Downloaded some drawing software for my daughter. Called my son (he’s over at my mother in law’s) to see if I should buy him a new magazine that I spotted. A special edition on Star Wars episode III. New sobriety guide line: Stop all activities by 22:30 & be in bed no later than 22:50 Got compliment at work from the main “tree” man. Wierdly enough it was as if he was congratulating me for this fantastic 005 day!
John, Where is the recovery plan? Let’s make Al get his Easy-chair!
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Post by Sawthelight on Feb 22, 2005 19:06:49 GMT -5
Bumping this up.... 25 days and doing pretty well. It helps to not procrastinate and stay busy, as well as focused on my core issues. I started my latest run back in January, but I intend to stay on this thread through May, and then I think someone should launch the next 100 days.
To those who are joining on the crusade, welcome aboard. I am really liking the whole idea. It seems to build momentum for everyone.
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Post by little knight on Feb 22, 2005 19:09:44 GMT -5
Today was a good day. I was talking to an attractive woman at work today when I realized that I was paying more attention to her than I normally would pay to anyone else. I have conversations with men all the time but this time I seemed particularly interested in the other person.
So when I realized this, I decided that I have to change my attitude. My recovery is not nearly complete when i am still talking to women with some desire in me.
I wasn't at all rude to her. I just brought my wife and family into the conversation and spoke very highly of them.
The fact is that there is something inside me that is still not letting go of all the things I used to obsess over. Sure I am not thinking blatantly lustful thoughts anymore and I am not fantasizing about any woman like I used to. But I have solid evidence that I am still not surrendering my right to lavish attention on women. Some part of me still wants to pursue them.
I am going to log off the computer right now and pray to God to help me give up this desire. I am going to ask Him to take away these feelings from me and that I will do His will only.
I feel closer to 100 already.
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Post by john on Feb 22, 2005 22:44:49 GMT -5
You guys I am feeling so jealous ! I could make it ! I am back at day 01 !
But the difference is that I am not …. I don’t know how to explain that. The thing is I didn’t slip. I wasn’t even dying to MB. I was in a position where I was about to cheat on my wife. So After a day of trying to avoid her I chose to get off the energy that was in me. My wife was off for the weekend visiting some relatives. I know what I did was wrong but refused to beat myself. I want to make things right but at the same time I don’t wont to get depress ! Life is harsh enough to make it worst. Do I want to become a better husband and father ? YES do I want to stop MB and P YES ! But I have to be careful on how I sometimes feel down.
Hope you guys understand. I am still sorry that After starting this all thread of 100 days I barely made a week.
Love you guys for me not being alone ! John Day 01
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Post by Scuban on Feb 23, 2005 12:45:39 GMT -5
Gotta confess something to all of yous. I gotta confess that I ....that I.....this is going to be tough .... but I must confess that I haven't taken my multi-vitamin for several days now.
No slips so far and I am staying over a friend's place in Hollywood which is right near a porn store with cheap vids. If I wanted to I could also find a cheap date but I am not going there in this time and age. I also passed by the executive offices of Vivid entertainment down here.
I didn't bring any multi-vitamins for this trip.
No slips, however. My friend who I stay with noticed that I pick up movies that have attractive women on the cover while we were at Blockbuster video. She seemed offended and suggested that I should consider going across the street to the speciality store, I said no. Later that night she asked me if I was into porn and I told her that I used to be and that I got rid of it. It was strange because this is the first time that I have been asked about it from a girl that I am seeing. It is come up with another friend but it was my admonition, a subject that I brought up who is a person who is kind of like a therapist. She hates being used like that but she has that aura that attracts guys for that reason. Anyways, my friend that I am staying with, "Sally" she had an ex-boyfriend that used her laptop, the same one that I am writing this on, for porn and yesterday she wanted to know that while she was away if I used it to go to porn sites and of course, since I am trying to help Al buy a easy chair I stated that I didn't and she told me about her ex that made her computer keep popping up sites when she got online the next time. She confronted him and he always denied it. Easy to believe.
Al, you will get your easy chair, buddy, at least you won't be able to blame me if you get in 3 years.
John, hang in there. Yesterday doesn't = today or tommorrow. Start anew.
Everybody else, keep keeping on. Pat yourself on the back for first making the effort in looking for this site and then for making a commitment to get to 100 days without porn. I would like to also state that MB shouldn't be looked upon as evil, but if it triggers you to look at porn then don't.
Stay strong. It is not going to be fun if I am the only one who makes it to 100 without...
1. Going to any porn sites that I have listed in forbidden sites. 2. Buying any adult movies or materials that involve the porn industry or benefits it. 3. Changing the filtering device in search engine e.g. Google's strict filtering which takes MOST pornographic images. 4. Keeping photos (and video playback) disabled from my home computer.
If you guys want to add to the list of behaviors that you also want forbidden in your daily activities of which if you engage will mean for you to start at day 0, list it. Listing it will remind us and define a line that we don't want to cross.
--Scuban1
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Post by a day at a time on Feb 23, 2005 14:58:40 GMT -5
Day 006
It snowed all day White streets, white cars, white trees, white city. About 2 to 3 inches of snow. Quite rare for a city like Paris. Went to work (tree pruning)- snow balls war throughout the whole day! Went to my new AA home group at the American Church – I had to kill about 3 hours until the meeting so I went to a public library near the Eiffel Tour. Read some comic books & some Flash MX stuff. I also got a couple of CDs for my kid & 3 for me. The David Bowie Tin Machine albums & a great early The Who sessions at the BBC. An impeccable white full moon is shining upon the black sky tonight. Today is my day off from commitments, so no GTR, meditation or web design practice tonight. Hey scuban1, I really think it’s pretty cool the way you put it: Staying away from porn because you’re helping Al get his easy chair. That’s quite something isn’t it? Well I’m also staying sober so that Al gets his easy chair & I can get my iPod as well. So far 12 Euros!!!
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Post by henceviol on Feb 24, 2005 1:18:36 GMT -5
Hey TEAM ummm...tomorrow will be exactly 2 months for me since I saw a clip. 25th of Dec to 25th of Feb. Boy oh by is it a battle....easy to loose and fall but lets not fall...got to go watch porn....I will be right back. *******just kidding sh!t*** time to go to sleep....2 months
Go ME!
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Post by Al on Feb 24, 2005 6:58:14 GMT -5
I'm back online on my regular computer. I have done a couple things with the statistics spreadsheet.
1) It's now in order of sobriety-length. 2) At the end it now reflects the percentage of us who have completed 100 days. When that percentage is 100, we are done, and I get my easy chair.
Be well, Al
Name____________Date____Free____Done_on
Maddy___________4-Sep___173_____13-Dec sjh57___________17-Nov__99______25-Feb Ken2____________25-Dec__61______4-Apr Paulus__________13-Jan__42______23-Apr pastlife________20-Jan__35______30-Apr bottleneck______23-Jan__32______3-May wolfy___________23-Jan__32______3-May knight__________25-Jan__30______5-May Sawthelight_____28-Jan__27______8-May sherwood________28-Jan__27______8-May Al______________6-Feb___18______17-May River___________6-Feb___18______17-May August_Hope_____10-Feb__14______21-May Padraig_________11-Feb__13______22-May stikint_________12-Feb__12______23-May thepride724_____12-Feb__12______23-May Benny___________13-Feb__11______24-May M386____________14-Feb__10______25-May Pollito_________14-Feb__10______25-May scuban1_________14-Feb__10______25-May zaf_____________14-Feb__10______25-May Dilbert_________15-Feb__9_______26-May IWillCo...This__16-Feb__8_______27-May raj_____________16-Feb__8_______27-May a_day_at_a_time_17-Feb__7_______28-May Marillion_______17-Feb__7_______28-May Shortguy________18-Feb__6_______29-May john____________21-Feb__3_______1-Jun
GROUP___________21-Feb__3_______1-Jun MEAN____________________26.57___ MEDIAN__________________12.5 TOTAL_DAYS______________744 PERCENT_COMPLETE________3.5%
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