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Post by googles on Dec 14, 2005 7:10:50 GMT -5
Read my post today. I would have taken the hug man. lol
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Post by witness on Dec 14, 2005 8:05:23 GMT -5
I was in a bad state, wasn't I Googles? I didn't even want the hug.
I'm happy to say I got some hugs later.
There are many things in me that still need to change.
It's like the bumper sticker I saw: "Be patient. God isn't finished with me yet!"
I just hope to make a little progress. So I'm trying to do better today and take things in stride. I need to remember that "this too shall pass" when something happens that doesn't please me. And I need to learn to enjoy all the good that is present in my life right now.
I guess that is enough rambling.
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Post by jh on Dec 14, 2005 8:32:14 GMT -5
Thank for the great quote.
- jh
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Post by witness on Dec 15, 2005 8:26:56 GMT -5
Regarding the post on financial problems I am happy to say that since childhood I have always had the practice of spending less than I have coming in. But my "thriftiness" has led to many conflicts over the years. I am doing better but still need to lighten up a bit regarding money issues.
Yesterday went well. We went to see the Narnia movie. I wrote a thread about that and posted it on the General board.
The fight continues to stay clean just for today!
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Post by lizardking on Dec 15, 2005 12:33:37 GMT -5
Witness,
Just catching up with your journal this morning. You seem to be in a strong place these days and I am happy/proud for you.
By all means, take those hugs! They make this stuff a lot easier to stomach for us on a day-to-day basis. I am only joking as I know your heart.
I hope we both continue to become better persons and more like Jesus. Amen to that.
LizardKing
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Post by witness on Dec 18, 2005 13:30:16 GMT -5
I've been pretty busy the past few days. Thank the Lord, I'm doing well and learning to control my thoughts.
I'm trying to put Romans 12.2 into practice.
Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is--his good, pleasing and perfect will.
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Post by witness on Dec 19, 2005 7:55:14 GMT -5
Day 55. What can I say? I feel free! I feel clean! It feels so good!
So just for today, I will control my eyes and my thoughts, with His help!
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Post by larus on Dec 19, 2005 8:03:00 GMT -5
thanks Witness
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Post by witness on Dec 20, 2005 5:12:31 GMT -5
Day 56. I had another good day. I finished a book "Pure Desire" by Ted Roberts. It had many helpful points. I would like to share one quote. It is in a testimonial at the end of the book. The author said referring to addiction:
"I was involved in compulsive behavior. I was the producer, director and star of my own self-absorbed, self-destructive disaster movie."
How sad! I want to star in a different movie. The one about a productive life with meaning and purpose!
So I plan to stay clean, just for today, with His help!
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Post by glockster on Dec 21, 2005 4:52:11 GMT -5
Stay strong and clean my friend !! You're on the highway to freedom !
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Post by witness on Dec 21, 2005 5:05:33 GMT -5
I'm still hanging in there but temptations do still appear.
Last night I was feeling somewhat neglected by my wife. I kind of got that "poor me" feeling. That allowed a little voice in my head to tell me that acting out was okay.
The good news is that I pushed that thought out of my mind and went to sleep.
So the fight for what is good and true and right continues.
Yes, Glockster, I want freedom! I want real life! I am tired of being a slave to illusions and lies. I want to be clean today, tomorrow and forever!
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Post by lizardking on Dec 21, 2005 7:59:46 GMT -5
Hi Witness,
That is good that you can overcome temptations and also that you realize where they are coming from and why. Hat's off to you.
My prayers are going out for you this morning.....
LizardKing
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Post by witness on Dec 21, 2005 8:07:04 GMT -5
Over the past 30 plus years I am sure that I have told myself that I would never look at P again more than 100 times. So why and how is this time going to be different?
In the book Song of Solomon 2.15 it is written: “Catch for us the foxes, the little foxes that ruin the vineyards, our vineyards that are in bloom.”
This time I am working to eliminate EVERY impure thought. I am not looking back a second time, I am looking away, I am changing the channel, turning off the computer, etc. whenever ANYTHING that might lead me to lust appears, such as a girl in a low cut top or with a short skirt, etc.
By avoiding the “little foxes”, things that many would consider perfectly normal and okay, I am staying away from the slippery slope that leads to the slim pit.
Of course I am tempted, but with God’s help, I try to quickly change my thoughts to other things, GOOD things.
Will I make it this time? So far I am off to a good start. But I have done this well in the past. Yet I never made this commitment in the past. This time feels different. And I believe that if I will continue focusing on TODAY, and staying clean just for today, that I will continue to enjoy freedom from this problem that has gripped me for way too long.
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Post by lizardking on Dec 21, 2005 8:29:43 GMT -5
Incredible thoughts, Witness! Thanks for sharing them with us this morning as that post was truly a gem.
Merry Christmas, Dude!
LizardKing
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Post by witness on Dec 22, 2005 12:18:59 GMT -5
Day 57. One more day of freedom. Freedom is fantastic!
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