Post by Norte on Apr 1, 2007 5:22:03 GMT -5
Six months no P no MB
Six months ago I started a new path that has led me to today. The path hasn’t
been an easy one, but for all I care a very rewarding one indeed.
I don’t count days anymore, nor even weeks; if something maybe months. I learned how
much anxiety adds counting to myself. I just focus on today. Today is my master, just aspire
to be sober today.
I thank God for all I have, for all the people I have, for everything, everyday and turn to Him,
when things get difficult.
I changed patterns, I get busy in the evenings, I do extra activities that keep my mind
and time busy and away from temptation.
I forced myself to be more open; to talk more, communicate more, to contact others more,
participate more, ask more, interact more, … Sure, sometimes I may make a fool of myself,
but if that reinforces good patterns and take me away from P, I’m a happy fool ;-)
I burnt in my mind that enough was enough, I want nothing to do with the P business at all
ever, I’m very happy accepting neither P nor MB for the rest of my life.
However, things are not perfect though. Temptations are there; thoughts are there; some
stretches of time are quiet and easy, whereas in others a wave of thoughts hit my mind out of
the blue. It’s an ongoing effort, it’s one day at a time.
All in all, life has improved a lot, so much better now, and above all, I have been granted
with some serenity, some control, and hope.
Definitely this board, and the people in it have played a tremendous role; it’s been a
blessing what I found here.
Once more:
God, grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
the courage to change the things I can
and the wisdom to know the difference.
take good care
norte
Six months ago I started a new path that has led me to today. The path hasn’t
been an easy one, but for all I care a very rewarding one indeed.
I don’t count days anymore, nor even weeks; if something maybe months. I learned how
much anxiety adds counting to myself. I just focus on today. Today is my master, just aspire
to be sober today.
I thank God for all I have, for all the people I have, for everything, everyday and turn to Him,
when things get difficult.
I changed patterns, I get busy in the evenings, I do extra activities that keep my mind
and time busy and away from temptation.
I forced myself to be more open; to talk more, communicate more, to contact others more,
participate more, ask more, interact more, … Sure, sometimes I may make a fool of myself,
but if that reinforces good patterns and take me away from P, I’m a happy fool ;-)
I burnt in my mind that enough was enough, I want nothing to do with the P business at all
ever, I’m very happy accepting neither P nor MB for the rest of my life.
However, things are not perfect though. Temptations are there; thoughts are there; some
stretches of time are quiet and easy, whereas in others a wave of thoughts hit my mind out of
the blue. It’s an ongoing effort, it’s one day at a time.
All in all, life has improved a lot, so much better now, and above all, I have been granted
with some serenity, some control, and hope.
Definitely this board, and the people in it have played a tremendous role; it’s been a
blessing what I found here.
Once more:
God, grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
the courage to change the things I can
and the wisdom to know the difference.
take good care
norte