One Month and Some - Yay!

[timeforachange]

Well, it has been some time since I have been on here. At the beginning of 2007, I decided that I was going to go with a clean slate. You only get a new year every 365 days, so why not use it. So far so good. I have not been on here much -- in fact, I have not been on here at all in the past month. It has been a long, long time since I have gone a month -- more than three years. In fact, I have not gone more than one month since getting broadband -- not that I am laying blame -- the problem is all mine!

At any rate, I thought I would share that with you all as I am pretty happy with it. Things have been different. I am beginning to remember what it was like to not have this issue. And so far, every day that goes by makes the hold that this had on me a little more loose. I just feel better over all.

One more (not so little thing) -- just found out, yesterday, that first kid is on the way. Wow. As I read that I still can't believe it. Never really wanted any, but now it seems different to me and I think adventurous times are ahead. It still seems surreal to read all that. Besides me and my wife -- no one knows except you all. Man, it feels weird to tell someone else even if we will never see each other. I am scared !@#$ less about the whole thing right now. Someone please tell me it will be okay!!

Might not be back for a bit, but I hope to stop back in another 30 days to tell you all that it's been another good 30 days.

Have a good one....

time for a change

[hurtmylove]

Rock on dude, simply rock on. Good for you and congrats on all of it!

Shabbat Shalom!

[Webmaster]

Congrats all around, Timeforachange... keep us up to date.

[timeforachange]

Sad to say that I had about a one hour slip up today. I don't really know what got me there, but something did. It was more for the boredom than anything else. I didn't even get aroused by the whole thing -- just sat looking, out of curiousity more than anything. Was actually more repulsed by what I saw, but much like a car wreck on the highway, I could not look away. Pathetic.

Oddly, I am not using this to binge and I am not really all that down about the whole thing. I am kinda like "Eh..whatever I screwed up more than I would have liked, but I have pretty much forgotten about the whole thing"

This slip is way less than anything else I have done in the past, so I have to think that it means I am gaining ground and that, to me, is a very good thing.

Keeping positive on this....

time for a change

[timeforachange]

And yet ANOTHER hour down the drain this afternoon. This will go down as a not very good weekend for sure.

Two hours at two diff times today -- arrrrrggggghhhh!!!! I guess that pretty much shoots my 2007 as P free down the drain now.

Was okay this morning -- now I am really bummed.

Dammit!

[timeforachange]

Sorry to bring everyone down with this. Maybe I should delete the whole thread?