Post by MJ on Dec 22, 2006 21:17:26 GMT -5
Hey everybody,
Today marks my 100th day being sober from masturbation and pornography. Here is the link to my journal entry from today: lightwave.proboards48.com/index.cgi?board=journal&action=display&thread=1152505298&page=53
Subtract the slip I had over September 11 and 12, and today I've been 198 days sober.
There is a long way for me to go---but I'm going to echo what many other people on this site have said: I'm coming to the realization that I will always be an addict---but I'm gaining a control of myself that before I didn't have a handle of. Getting to 100 days hasn't been exactly easy, but with my various support systems I have managed to steer clear of my bottom-line behaviors. Recovery is to continually learn about myself---my past, present, and future.
I have made it this far by posting faithfully on this board by responding to new members and old members alike, and keeping my online recovery journal; attending weekly SLAA meetings; checking in with my SLAA sponsor by phone almost daily; praying and asking help from God; reading from Patrick Carnes's two books "In the Shadows of the Net" and "Out of the Shadows"; reading from SLAA's "Basic Text"; keeping a handwritten journal of my thoughts and fears; and avoiding all of my middle-circle behaviors.
I think that one of the most important things to remember is to keep taking this one day at a time. Worrying about the future is too overwhelming, but focusing on TODAY is much more feasible.
So I know that I have a long way to go, but the fact that I have made it this far proves that the chains of addiction can be broken, even if it means slowly breaking them link by link.
I look forward with hope that I will continue on this journey of recovery and discovery, and that my next milestone of 6 months will find me doing well and even better than I am today.
Peace,
MJ 12/22/06
Today marks my 100th day being sober from masturbation and pornography. Here is the link to my journal entry from today: lightwave.proboards48.com/index.cgi?board=journal&action=display&thread=1152505298&page=53
Subtract the slip I had over September 11 and 12, and today I've been 198 days sober.
There is a long way for me to go---but I'm going to echo what many other people on this site have said: I'm coming to the realization that I will always be an addict---but I'm gaining a control of myself that before I didn't have a handle of. Getting to 100 days hasn't been exactly easy, but with my various support systems I have managed to steer clear of my bottom-line behaviors. Recovery is to continually learn about myself---my past, present, and future.
I have made it this far by posting faithfully on this board by responding to new members and old members alike, and keeping my online recovery journal; attending weekly SLAA meetings; checking in with my SLAA sponsor by phone almost daily; praying and asking help from God; reading from Patrick Carnes's two books "In the Shadows of the Net" and "Out of the Shadows"; reading from SLAA's "Basic Text"; keeping a handwritten journal of my thoughts and fears; and avoiding all of my middle-circle behaviors.
I think that one of the most important things to remember is to keep taking this one day at a time. Worrying about the future is too overwhelming, but focusing on TODAY is much more feasible.
So I know that I have a long way to go, but the fact that I have made it this far proves that the chains of addiction can be broken, even if it means slowly breaking them link by link.
I look forward with hope that I will continue on this journey of recovery and discovery, and that my next milestone of 6 months will find me doing well and even better than I am today.
Peace,
MJ 12/22/06
