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Post by imdone on Dec 16, 2007 20:39:00 GMT -5
December 16th, 2007
Today is day one of no more porn. Only this time its with the help of many others, not alone. I've tried two other times on my own and failed. The first time times attempting to quit, I never felt like this so I'm praying that it will all work out. Even though it was real rough day, its the new beginning. I'll work past it. I've hurt to many people in my life to continue.
I hope I cry everytime I write here.
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Post by dwaz62 on Dec 16, 2007 21:59:24 GMT -5
I just wanted to say hello and welcome you here. I joined this website and recorded my first journal entry just over a week ago. I hear you and understand. I have tried unsuccessfully to resolve a porn issue off and on for years. It came to a head with my wife and I'm working really, really hard to take care of it for the sake of my marriage.
I want to offer to be a sounding board for you should you want it. I have some good days and some bad days right now. I've received words of encouragement here from other people just like you and I and I'm coming to see that it is helpful for us to support each other with encouragement to achieve success in our fight against P and to just to be there for each other during the tough times.
I wish you great success in your journey to find freedom from P and if there is anything I can do just let me know.
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Post by imdone on Dec 17, 2007 9:47:33 GMT -5
Thank you very much. I'm 20 and this is the first time I've made it onto an outside support group like this. Its only day 2, I'm overwhelmed and still in shock that all of you are out here for eachother. I think this this will be a great experience. If anyone needs to vent or just talk, I'm here.
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Post by davion2308 on Dec 17, 2007 11:23:12 GMT -5
Hi, Imdone.
Welcome aboard!
I've been here for over a week, and I've been eight days without p so far. This is a personal best for the past 13 years and it couldn't have been done without the help of everyone here. We're here for each other and we're here for you.
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Post by imdone on Dec 17, 2007 20:56:35 GMT -5
Although its only day 2 and its early in recovery, ALL I can think about while reading here are the obstacles I'll have to overcome....depression, loneliness, guilt....and so on. I know that its not possible to surpass most of these, but its so hard because all I want is to gain the trust back that people have lost in me. This is definitely going to be my biggest motivation. This situation has really altered my main relationship and its really hurting because I just want things to be back the way they were (minus p) 2 days ago. I still strongly believe in myself, the future just seems scary.
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william1000
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I can not do everything, but I can do something. I must not fail to do the something that I can do.
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Post by william1000 on Dec 18, 2007 16:53:58 GMT -5
Hi ImDone.
Congratulations on starting the journey.
Your journey will be similar to some peoples and different to others.
Some of the stories here can be daunting and scary.
You may not suffer some of things people suffer here. Don't worry about the obstacles.
Focus on your good reasons for coming here and wanting to change. That is the overwhelming positive. The future is unwritten. You have a chance to decide your future.
You are at a fork in the road. You could decide like most people to ignore your problems and carry on the same way. You have taken the road less travelled and decided to confront your issues. This makes your future positive. What would be scary is to do nothing.
You have made the right decision. If it were easy there would be noone on this site. It is hard but it is doable.
Best of luck in your struggle and have a great christmas.
Kind Regards
William
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Post by imdone on Dec 18, 2007 18:19:32 GMT -5
Thank you William! That is a great way to put it. I think I've had more of a negative attitude most of my life so I think I'll try to change that now too along with my other problem  |
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