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Post by Johannes on Dec 9, 2007 21:37:00 GMT -5
Will I make it to Senior Member before the board closes?  ? Stay tuned to find out! Ah, in a week I'm flying to Germany, and won't have board access for two weeks--I'm a bit saddened that I may not be there for opening day of the new board. Let's all recover. Johannes |
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Post by Mayberry on Dec 10, 2007 7:11:51 GMT -5
Johannes: Sounds like you've turned an internal corner. I enjoyed reading your discoveries at your therapist's the other day. Sounds like good work for you.
I don't know how long you want a long novel:
The Sheltering Sky: Bowles (350 pages)
Their Eyes Were Watching God: Hurston (300 pages)
You Can't Go Home Again: Wolfe (724 pages)
I believe all those fit your time frame and the American element. Cheers. J
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Post by Johannes on Dec 12, 2007 0:53:36 GMT -5
Thank you, Mayberry! I think "Eyes were watching God" will make the list!!!!! I am pressed for time with the final days of the semester. But I wanted to write in here tonight............I am happy. I have not felt like this in a long while. Joy of living. Yes, I know, only five days sober (and I'm happy I don't need to keep track--since choselife is also now embarking on a long long, endless I hope, stretch of sobriety and recovery, I just need to keep his number in mind  ); but it's something else I'm experiencing right now. Pure joy of being alive. If I act out, I will lose this joy. So I won't act out. Indeed, I'm still far away from the 2 week mark. But I feel very very good about things. I will be fine, and I will do good work, and people love me, and I love them ;D ;D And no, I'm not on drugs  I'm flying to Germany on Sunday (and probably won't have board access there), but I hope for a long update before my flight. Let's all recover. Yes! Johannes |
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Post by Mayberry on Dec 12, 2007 21:39:41 GMT -5
Hope you have the whole "what books" thing resolved by now. I enjoyed reading your "high on life" post; it was a nice treat this morning. Made me grin for you, and just grin in general. I hope your preparations for your trip are going well. Are you anxious about the trip or peaceful with it? Inquiring minds want to know. J
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Post by Johannes on Dec 12, 2007 23:44:07 GMT -5
Hehehe mayberry, I also enjoyed my "high on life" post ;D ;D ;D ;D I was just so incredibly ecstatic last night. And yes! 2 minutes ago, I finally got in those book orders. Oooh, the students will groan, seeing the list: we're reading 11 books. Weeeeeeeeeeeee! It'll be a great course. I just know it!!!! Okay, serious matters: what I am feeling, and this is the difference to previous times: a week into sobriety, and withdrawal symptoms are setting in. But this time around, I am more aware of this, and even willing to acknowledge that something like withdrawal symptoms exists for me (I frequently scoff at the thought--may have to do with not completely admitting that this is an addiction.) Stressful days still ahead. There's one more course that I need to get book orders in, and I'm not really yet sure what to focus on in the course....  It's about "Religion, Death, and Dying"--and yes, if one of my colleagues wanted to figure out my identity, this is like so totally easy now. But that'd be alright. Sure, I'm also saying that because I somehow don't think my colleagues hang out at no porn. And if they do, we'd be companions anyway.... So, I have one nice textbook on world religions' view on dying. Then I will order a lil' book of Emily Dickinson poems. And then I gotta decide on some specific religions to focus on. I'll do Buddhism (duh), and a friend recommended a book here, "The Tibetan Book of Living and Dying" And maybe I can do Judaism, with perspective on Holocaust? And gotta find some other things..... And then, grading marathon, and need to finalize a proposal for a new minor at our school, and prepare the Germany trip (which I am looking forward to!) So, a lot on my plate. But I'm sober. Let's all recover our sacred lives. Johannes |
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Post by Johannes on Dec 16, 2007 11:58:49 GMT -5
Sorry I didn't get to update here--lots of end of the semester chaos here. Now, I gotta leave in 2 minutes to catch my plane. I'll be back in a bit over 2 weeks. I'm doing well LET'S ALLL RECOVER, ALWAYS. Johannes |
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Post by whoami on Dec 16, 2007 13:28:51 GMT -5
As I wave goodbye to Johannes, I am wishing him a safe and pleasant journey, and a peace-filled recovery always!
I'm a little too late, but Merry Christmas, Johannes. And my best wishes for a happy, healthy addiction-free new year. You can see this when you get back, and are starting your new year ;D
Stay safe!
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Post by dazednconfused on Dec 16, 2007 14:07:39 GMT -5
Praying for you to have a safe journey Johannes... and that you made it through the eastern US without too much "delay" Safe travels (both physical and spiritual)
-daisy
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? Stay tuned to find out! Ah, in a week I'm flying to Germany, and won't have board access for two weeks--I'm a bit saddened that I may not be there for opening day of the new board.
); but it's something else I'm experiencing right now. Pure joy of being alive. If I act out, I will lose this joy. So I won't act out. Indeed, I'm still far away from the 2 week mark. But I feel very very good about things. I will be fine, and I will do good work, and people love me, and I love them ;D ;D And no, I'm not on drugs 
It's about "Religion, Death, and Dying"--and yes, if one of my colleagues wanted to figure out my identity, this is like so totally easy now. But that'd be alright. Sure, I'm also saying that because I somehow don't think my colleagues hang out at no porn. And if they do, we'd be companions anyway.... 