Polygraph results

[emptyanddestroyed]

Yesterday I received my h's polygraph results, and they were good. No cp, no fantasies of underage girls, no physical contact outside of the marriage, no abuse of our son, no lying since the last d-day. While it's a relief, it's horrible that it's a relief. I'm happy about the results, but so destroyed that it came to this.

I'm still waiting on the plethysmograph results - which is really scary as well. The guy who did the testing said that there was nothing bad - but who knows what his opinion means. Hopefully I'll find out today what the results mean and what they are.

I'm still two states away from him and I've been going to s-anon meetings and talking to my old therapist by phone. All of that has helped me to just take a break and clear my head. I'm lucky that my parents are so here for me. I'm still just so confused about everything and so terribly hurt.

[milla]

Well, good to hear it wasn't as bad as you thought.

it's horrible that it's a relief

Yeah. I know what you mean..

[weepingwillow]

emptyanddestroyed,

I'm happy for you that with all that is going on,all the lying...at least you found some truth...even if it took a test to find it!

I COMPLETELY understand this desire for a test..I mean what do they expect? We've been lied to for years now,and they're so good at it...who knows what's true?

The peace that at least the illegal,and horrible things are something he didn't do,are a relief you DESERVE.

[iambetrayed]

Hello

I am so glad that it was not as horrible as you had feared. And I am also glad that you are having some peace and some head clearing time with your family.

I'm still just so confused about everything and so terribly hurt.

I know ... it is terrible, no matter what you are deciding and what is going on. Sure you feel "better" but it is sad that it has to come to this for all of us. The "betters" are worse than we ever could have imagined before all of this.

Take care and enjoy your time with your family.

[completelydone]

I'm happy for you that your worst fears were unfounded.