Post by mo4wo1 on Dec 18, 2007 12:29:27 GMT -5
Gotta love the roller coaster, lol!
H & I are doing good right now. I still have yet to blowup over his having been fired 9 years ago but really, I am thinking I won't. Not that I am holding back but rather I don't see the point in it. I mean it was some 9 years ago & we're okay, now.
I get that he's an addict. That's what addicts have been known to do. Not that it's okay or should be expected, that they will use at work. I am just not surprised it happened.
He is an addict!
What aggravates me the most, though, isn't even that he lied for so long. I mean addicts lie to protect their addictions. It just is. But the fact that he keeps adding lies to his already 52 items long list is just maddening.
He hates that it's so ingrained in him to lie. I really see how it tears him up for real. I just want that to stop foremost. I believe I can handle the rest if he stays honest.
He's getting there. I mean, he is telling truths that he's never told me before. I just wish he'd hurry up & get there.
Lessons to Learn
Patience.
He's doing what I need most, "coming clean" with me & getting honest. It's just going to take time with him. He needs time & if I am to stay, I must accept that. And I will, as long as he continues to work this.
Acceptance
He's working this recovery the best way he can right now. Definitely could do better! But he's giving what he's giving & that's that. It's either enough or it's not. I must accept what I can & cannot tolerate. I must accept myself & my limits, too.
I am.
H & I are doing good right now. I still have yet to blowup over his having been fired 9 years ago but really, I am thinking I won't. Not that I am holding back but rather I don't see the point in it. I mean it was some 9 years ago & we're okay, now.
I get that he's an addict. That's what addicts have been known to do. Not that it's okay or should be expected, that they will use at work. I am just not surprised it happened.
He is an addict!
What aggravates me the most, though, isn't even that he lied for so long. I mean addicts lie to protect their addictions. It just is. But the fact that he keeps adding lies to his already 52 items long list is just maddening.
He hates that it's so ingrained in him to lie. I really see how it tears him up for real. I just want that to stop foremost. I believe I can handle the rest if he stays honest.
He's getting there. I mean, he is telling truths that he's never told me before. I just wish he'd hurry up & get there.
Lessons to Learn
Patience.
He's doing what I need most, "coming clean" with me & getting honest. It's just going to take time with him. He needs time & if I am to stay, I must accept that. And I will, as long as he continues to work this.
Acceptance
He's working this recovery the best way he can right now. Definitely could do better! But he's giving what he's giving & that's that. It's either enough or it's not. I must accept what I can & cannot tolerate. I must accept myself & my limits, too.
I am.