Post by lee1234 on Dec 16, 2007 23:02:25 GMT -5
I'm sitting here drinking a glass of red wine and feeling reflective. Before this last d-day, I had thought things were getting better. I had even decided it was time to try for baby #2. I've got fertility issues, so I had started taking clomid to help with ovulation. This is pretty much my first drink in a long time since I didn't even want to have a drink while trying to concieve. I don't drink often or much, so forgive me if this one glass has already gone to my head.
I was sitting here wondering what has become of the world. There has been a huge loss of innosense due to the ready access of p on the internet, satelite, etc. It's given anonymity to something shameful and brought it into every corner of our homes. I think about the generations before us. P was by no means absent, but you had to seek it out in person. Now it comes to find you.
As this access becomes more and more free and ever-present, what do our children have to look forward to? I hate to think about this much. My therapist used a simale about a patient who smokes marijuana and was surprised when his daughter followed his example. All I could think was that because my H is setting an example that P is acceptable, that one day our beautiful and innoscent daughter will either marry a P addict herself and suffer my pain or much worse be a part of a p lifestyle. I shudder to think of that....
I'm sure previous generations would be horrified to know how sexualized our society has gotten. It pervades nearly everything. You can't look at a magazine, billboard, commercial, or TV program without seeing something overtly or subtly sexual. If they would be horrified by our society, what will my daughter's world be like?
These thoughts really strenthen my convictions about needing to break my H's addiction and attitudes about p and sex. This needs to be stopped. And it's going to have to be one person at a time. God knows if no one was buying, there'd be no reason to sell it. It really feels like an incredible uphill battle though, and sometimes, I feel so, so tired...
Just my rambling thoughts for the evening....
I was sitting here wondering what has become of the world. There has been a huge loss of innosense due to the ready access of p on the internet, satelite, etc. It's given anonymity to something shameful and brought it into every corner of our homes. I think about the generations before us. P was by no means absent, but you had to seek it out in person. Now it comes to find you.
As this access becomes more and more free and ever-present, what do our children have to look forward to? I hate to think about this much. My therapist used a simale about a patient who smokes marijuana and was surprised when his daughter followed his example. All I could think was that because my H is setting an example that P is acceptable, that one day our beautiful and innoscent daughter will either marry a P addict herself and suffer my pain or much worse be a part of a p lifestyle. I shudder to think of that....
I'm sure previous generations would be horrified to know how sexualized our society has gotten. It pervades nearly everything. You can't look at a magazine, billboard, commercial, or TV program without seeing something overtly or subtly sexual. If they would be horrified by our society, what will my daughter's world be like?
These thoughts really strenthen my convictions about needing to break my H's addiction and attitudes about p and sex. This needs to be stopped. And it's going to have to be one person at a time. God knows if no one was buying, there'd be no reason to sell it. It really feels like an incredible uphill battle though, and sometimes, I feel so, so tired...
Just my rambling thoughts for the evening....