Post by myso on Dec 16, 2007 22:51:07 GMT -5
Hi. I am brand new on this forum. I am 20 and I have been with my bf for 4 years.
After about 1.5 years of being with him I checked his computer's history and saw that he was looking at P. I was very upset and he said "all guys do it." I didnt really care if all guys did it because I wanted a guy that didnt. He felt really bad and said he would stop.... About 6 months later I walked in on him looking at P. It was so horrible. Between those times, I looked on his computer and never saw anything on it, he mustve been hiding it well. Well, that was 2 years ago and today, it all happened again.
He was sick and so I was cleaning his apartment while he was sleeping and using his computer, I then came across and huge amount of P. I went in and woke him up and told him I was leaving because I just found his P. When he heard me say that, I could tell he was disappointed. He didnt say much back about it because I was talking alot telling him how sad and disappointed I was. I just gathered my things and left his house.
For the past 2 years, I asked him multiple times and he promised me he wasnt doing it. The fact he promised me, makes it so much worse. I dont know what to do. I really love him and we're better than ever but knowing he lied to my face for 2 years, kills me. He is using this thread also and he knows he has a problem.. I just dont know if I can ever trust him again. How can I build this trust again? Not only did he lose my trust, he made me feel horrible about my own body.
I just need some advice....
After about 1.5 years of being with him I checked his computer's history and saw that he was looking at P. I was very upset and he said "all guys do it." I didnt really care if all guys did it because I wanted a guy that didnt. He felt really bad and said he would stop.... About 6 months later I walked in on him looking at P. It was so horrible. Between those times, I looked on his computer and never saw anything on it, he mustve been hiding it well. Well, that was 2 years ago and today, it all happened again.
He was sick and so I was cleaning his apartment while he was sleeping and using his computer, I then came across and huge amount of P. I went in and woke him up and told him I was leaving because I just found his P. When he heard me say that, I could tell he was disappointed. He didnt say much back about it because I was talking alot telling him how sad and disappointed I was. I just gathered my things and left his house.
For the past 2 years, I asked him multiple times and he promised me he wasnt doing it. The fact he promised me, makes it so much worse. I dont know what to do. I really love him and we're better than ever but knowing he lied to my face for 2 years, kills me. He is using this thread also and he knows he has a problem.. I just dont know if I can ever trust him again. How can I build this trust again? Not only did he lose my trust, he made me feel horrible about my own body.
I just need some advice....
