Post by StrikeTheDemons on Jan 8, 2008 16:47:37 GMT -5
Hey guys, I'm back. It's been a long while since I've been to the board because the internet filter I was using blocked it and I couldn't get that particular filter to unblock it. (Net-nanny, and it wasn't very good at other things either) I've since switched to K9 protection and it's a lot more effective at accurately rating websites. (Plus it's free!)
Things are going pretty good these days. I'm sitting with about a month of sobriety currently. I've been attending SA meetings for about 2 years straight now too. Over the past 2 years, I had one point of about 14 months of sobriety and another 6 months after that. Then it was down to 3 and now I'm hear with one. It seems like things were getting worse in some ways, but in other ways, I stayed on top of my addiction when I slipped. I jumped right back into recovery by opening up to my wife, councilor, SA friends, and church leaders. In contrast, before I'd wallow in it for days, weeks, or even months before coming clean again.
After my last slip, I knew I was missing something important. Right now I'm really focusing on Steps 10 and 11. I've been striving hard to read my scriptures morning and night as well as having meaningful prayers. The thing I've been missing is a strong relationship with God. (This isn't a thread to start arguments about God and recovery, this is just about me and what's working for me) I've had a "so-so" relationship over the past couple of years, but that's not enough. I need to step it up a notch or five. I'm also really glad that I can access the board again. I've really missed being able to journal and analyze where I'm at in my recovery. This is a place where I feel I can do that safely.
They say that steps 10-12 are the "maintenance steps". In the past, I've done pretty good at racking up sobriety, but not so good at maintaining that sobriety through extremely stressful times. I don't relapse in an instant, I slip very slowly without realizing it and then it's too late. The "maintenance steps" are there to help us realize and correct our path before we relapse. As they say, "Life by the inch is a cinch, life by the yard is hard."
Anyways, I'm very grateful to be back, and I look forward to seeing some familiar faces on the board. I better get back to work for now, but I plan to check in a couple of times a week.
-Strike-
Things are going pretty good these days. I'm sitting with about a month of sobriety currently. I've been attending SA meetings for about 2 years straight now too. Over the past 2 years, I had one point of about 14 months of sobriety and another 6 months after that. Then it was down to 3 and now I'm hear with one. It seems like things were getting worse in some ways, but in other ways, I stayed on top of my addiction when I slipped. I jumped right back into recovery by opening up to my wife, councilor, SA friends, and church leaders. In contrast, before I'd wallow in it for days, weeks, or even months before coming clean again.
After my last slip, I knew I was missing something important. Right now I'm really focusing on Steps 10 and 11. I've been striving hard to read my scriptures morning and night as well as having meaningful prayers. The thing I've been missing is a strong relationship with God. (This isn't a thread to start arguments about God and recovery, this is just about me and what's working for me) I've had a "so-so" relationship over the past couple of years, but that's not enough. I need to step it up a notch or five. I'm also really glad that I can access the board again. I've really missed being able to journal and analyze where I'm at in my recovery. This is a place where I feel I can do that safely.
They say that steps 10-12 are the "maintenance steps". In the past, I've done pretty good at racking up sobriety, but not so good at maintaining that sobriety through extremely stressful times. I don't relapse in an instant, I slip very slowly without realizing it and then it's too late. The "maintenance steps" are there to help us realize and correct our path before we relapse. As they say, "Life by the inch is a cinch, life by the yard is hard."
Anyways, I'm very grateful to be back, and I look forward to seeing some familiar faces on the board. I better get back to work for now, but I plan to check in a couple of times a week.
-Strike-
