Post by LivingINGrace on Dec 31, 2006 23:26:51 GMT -5
Hi All,
I suppose today marks a milestone for me -- 6 months of being in freedom from slavery to P and Mb
it's taken a long time to get here.. with so many falls and struggles and efforts to get back up...but somehow God's just pulled me through... i really owe all of this to God
God did tell me how much this problem controlled me -- he showed me how it ran my life, how it ruled over me -- the times spending hours and hours on P, purposely missing on outings just to spend time in my fantasies, and then even taking this sin into the public -- it was a life destined for death and i was trapped in it, knowing that it was wrong but thirsting for the brief moments of contentment that it brang me,
God did break me though -- just like how he broke David when he had killed Basheba's husband and committed adultry with her.. He broke me enough to say 'No' to that adulterous life..to have sorrow over what i did in hurting God and to change..
and so.. i told a friend.. got rid of things which would lead me back to the old way of life...and for some reason, God started bringing other people to me which had similar struggles... which added in an commitment to staying free
from there hanging close onto God's word gave strength -- changing my thinking and attitude.. (i still need to work on this one better though) and having true joy from the one who saved me and gave me life again
So now, its 6 months, and I truely hope i can post again in another 6 months time,
thanks for listening - and to those out there who seem hopeless about their situation - keep enduring; for one who perserveres will see hope,
LivingINGrace
I suppose today marks a milestone for me -- 6 months of being in freedom from slavery to P and Mb
it's taken a long time to get here.. with so many falls and struggles and efforts to get back up...but somehow God's just pulled me through... i really owe all of this to God
God did tell me how much this problem controlled me -- he showed me how it ran my life, how it ruled over me -- the times spending hours and hours on P, purposely missing on outings just to spend time in my fantasies, and then even taking this sin into the public -- it was a life destined for death and i was trapped in it, knowing that it was wrong but thirsting for the brief moments of contentment that it brang me,
God did break me though -- just like how he broke David when he had killed Basheba's husband and committed adultry with her.. He broke me enough to say 'No' to that adulterous life..to have sorrow over what i did in hurting God and to change..
and so.. i told a friend.. got rid of things which would lead me back to the old way of life...and for some reason, God started bringing other people to me which had similar struggles... which added in an commitment to staying free
from there hanging close onto God's word gave strength -- changing my thinking and attitude.. (i still need to work on this one better though) and having true joy from the one who saved me and gave me life again
So now, its 6 months, and I truely hope i can post again in another 6 months time,
thanks for listening - and to those out there who seem hopeless about their situation - keep enduring; for one who perserveres will see hope,
LivingINGrace