Post by Rorke's Drift on Dec 15, 2007 11:21:28 GMT -5
Ever seen where a professional wrestler is put in a sleeper hold?
the ref holds the wrestler's arm up twice to check if he is knocked out, only to have the wrestler's arm flop back down....but on the ref's third and final check, the wrestler digs deep in himself and holds his arm up. Like a Hulk Hogan, he eventually stands up to the cheers of the crowd, and get's out of the sleeper hold. As the momentum grows, Hulk Hogan takes control of the match...even pointing at his opponent as if to say "YOU!" before launching an offensive assault that carries him to victory. Evere seen that?
Well...that's me right now. I'm that guy. I know wrestling is fake, but my battle with P addiction is very much a reality.
I was doing good staying sober. I had made it for 18 days before I caved in.
Here are some reasons why I think I failed:
* I went out of town for work, and I was not able to make my daily posts to this site. I try to do two things daily on this site:
1. give a daily update about my recovery
2. respond to someone's post providing advice and support.
* I came down with a cold on my way back home from out of town. I had to wake up at 4 am to catch my flight home. I was very tired, and I wan't thinking clearly or rationally.
* I did not recite any of my affirmations the night before I caved in or the morning I woke up in a hurry to catch my flight.
* I was frustrated with the way my job assignment played out, coming back home sick with a cold, and I was looking for some type of satisfaction.
* My prayer life was not up to speed while I was out of town.
* The night before I caved in, I had envisioned myself being tempted and failing the next day when I got back, knowing that I would be tired, and being back home alone with free time on my hands.
* I never followed up with other areas of my plan such as installing a filter on my computer and buying the accountability software.
Today is December 15, and is a great day to start my #1 goal over again: 100 days sober of P. I have learned from this failure. I have gotten out of the sleeper hold, and I am back on my feet.
And like old Hulk Hogan in the wrestling ring...I now point at P in it's evil eye and say "YOU !!!"
(Any feedback or advice is highly appreciated).
Rorke's Drift
the ref holds the wrestler's arm up twice to check if he is knocked out, only to have the wrestler's arm flop back down....but on the ref's third and final check, the wrestler digs deep in himself and holds his arm up. Like a Hulk Hogan, he eventually stands up to the cheers of the crowd, and get's out of the sleeper hold. As the momentum grows, Hulk Hogan takes control of the match...even pointing at his opponent as if to say "YOU!" before launching an offensive assault that carries him to victory. Evere seen that?
Well...that's me right now. I'm that guy. I know wrestling is fake, but my battle with P addiction is very much a reality.
I was doing good staying sober. I had made it for 18 days before I caved in.
Here are some reasons why I think I failed:
* I went out of town for work, and I was not able to make my daily posts to this site. I try to do two things daily on this site:
1. give a daily update about my recovery
2. respond to someone's post providing advice and support.
* I came down with a cold on my way back home from out of town. I had to wake up at 4 am to catch my flight home. I was very tired, and I wan't thinking clearly or rationally.
* I did not recite any of my affirmations the night before I caved in or the morning I woke up in a hurry to catch my flight.
* I was frustrated with the way my job assignment played out, coming back home sick with a cold, and I was looking for some type of satisfaction.
* My prayer life was not up to speed while I was out of town.
* The night before I caved in, I had envisioned myself being tempted and failing the next day when I got back, knowing that I would be tired, and being back home alone with free time on my hands.
* I never followed up with other areas of my plan such as installing a filter on my computer and buying the accountability software.
Today is December 15, and is a great day to start my #1 goal over again: 100 days sober of P. I have learned from this failure. I have gotten out of the sleeper hold, and I am back on my feet.
And like old Hulk Hogan in the wrestling ring...I now point at P in it's evil eye and say "YOU !!!"
(Any feedback or advice is highly appreciated).
Rorke's Drift
