Post by padhana on Dec 13, 2007 17:15:19 GMT -5
Ok...so I discovered this board and have been reading a lot. It's been empowering to discover that so many people have a similar history and struggle as what I've been facing for so, so long. I've truly felt alone for many years.
My story is not unique. I started using P in my early teens, never thought it was much of a problem until I realized that I spent too much time with it in college and used it to compensate for other social deficiencies in my life. After college the trend continued (I'm 33 now), ebbing and flowing but always present. It has pretty much been a daily part of my life as long as I can remember. Something I always have wanted to stop, but something that I come back too over, and over, and over again. I always say I will stop "after this one time", or "tomorrow". But it never stops.
I'm tired of the excuses and I realize how hard this is going to be. With all of the availability on the net, I realize that breaking what has been a daily habit is going to be a huge struggle. But I am committed to try.
So my goal for now is to make it thru today. For once, I want to not say "tomorrow", but to say "today" instead. I would like to think that I can make it 30 days, but that seems impossible right now. I am confident that today I can make it, and hopefully tomorrow I will be able to say the same.
I welcome any comments and can use encouragement. I will keep posting as things progress.
My story is not unique. I started using P in my early teens, never thought it was much of a problem until I realized that I spent too much time with it in college and used it to compensate for other social deficiencies in my life. After college the trend continued (I'm 33 now), ebbing and flowing but always present. It has pretty much been a daily part of my life as long as I can remember. Something I always have wanted to stop, but something that I come back too over, and over, and over again. I always say I will stop "after this one time", or "tomorrow". But it never stops.
I'm tired of the excuses and I realize how hard this is going to be. With all of the availability on the net, I realize that breaking what has been a daily habit is going to be a huge struggle. But I am committed to try.
So my goal for now is to make it thru today. For once, I want to not say "tomorrow", but to say "today" instead. I would like to think that I can make it 30 days, but that seems impossible right now. I am confident that today I can make it, and hopefully tomorrow I will be able to say the same.
I welcome any comments and can use encouragement. I will keep posting as things progress.