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Post by ≈ cease4peace ≈ on Nov 29, 2007 11:00:56 GMT -5
There is something I have discovered, a gem, a diamond.... I would have never found this out on my own. With the help of a personal trainer, I discovered something about myself. The thing about training is that he pushes me beyond my limits. I'll be on my "last leg" on a mere thread, and I hear him shout "5 more! you can do this! CMON go! DONT GIVE UP!" and then I end up doing 5 more and I'm like WHOA how the hell!?! did I just...? I did!
The thing is. I have discovered something about will power. I am not a fan of white knuckling, but I have discovered that will power can be trained through exercise.
It's like putting your arm through a fiery furnace, and as the flames singe and burn your arm, you keep pushing.. you push, and you push, and you push, and then you grab the diamond out. Only in this analogy the diamond itself heals your arm, makes you stronger, and you become better than you could ever imagine.
A true test of endurance goes beyond my scope now. It's like I know that even if I'm in pain, that it hurts, that I can push! push! push! push! into a new, better, me. This is what true endurance is. True endurance is not giving up when it seems too hard, when it seems too painful, when it seems like all is lost. It's not giving up even if it kills me. I want true endurance, and I feel like I'm training it, every time I go to the gym!
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Post by mo4wo1 on Nov 29, 2007 13:02:27 GMT -5
And, that's what true courage is, too! Doing even though.
You are heard!
Beste wishes,
Mo
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chad32
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Becoming pure again...
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Post by chad32 on Nov 29, 2007 19:35:33 GMT -5
I'm with you cease4peace - 5 more. 5 more days, I can keep going without P. And then another 5 days (but I'll think about that later!)
Chad
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Rorke's Drift
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Post by Rorke's Drift on Nov 30, 2007 0:35:07 GMT -5
Cease4peace, I'm not sure if I have read a message yet on this entire board that has inspired me as much as yours. Thank you.
Yes, life is like being a tree in the ground. Every day, you get all kinds of weather in your life....sunny days, cloudy days, windy days, pleasant days, sever thunderstorms, all kinds. Just know that know matter what, it will pass....from bad to good or good to bad, it wil pass and pass again.Always. Just like the weather. You must take it all in, the sun and rain, and grow stronger from it...dont ever fall over or dry up. Take root, and you will bloom.
Rorke's Drift
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learning2bebetter
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If you have faith the size of a mustard seed...nothing will be impossible to you.
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Post by learning2bebetter on Nov 30, 2007 0:51:50 GMT -5
Wow this is truly an inspiration. Thank you for this pearl of wisdom!
l2bb
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Post by kjt1981 on Dec 1, 2007 9:31:47 GMT -5
this has really helped me out of a hole today. Ive had some bad news this morning, and have felt very tempted this afternoon, as a way of numbing my feelings about said bad news. Of course, i should be meeting bad news head on, thats what lifes about isnt it? looking for ways to numb the feelings is a cowards way out, and of course this is a matter of endurance - to "push, push, push" myself through my current emotions to be a better person on the other side, not look for a cowards way out. On the plus side If i can go another week i will have broken my record of not looking at P for over two weeks.
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relyingonhim
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I will set before my eyes no vile thing." Psa 101:3 (NIV)
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Post by relyingonhim on Dec 1, 2007 11:28:12 GMT -5
I'm so headed back to the gym this coming week. It's really true how willpower can be developed through exercise; how we constantly stretch it when we push ourselves. and as for going clean, I'm going to push myself for one more week, and then another, and another, and another...
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Post by davion2308 on Dec 15, 2007 18:48:37 GMT -5
I feel the pull of P often. The inner strength needed to control and subdue this beast is immense. Like Cease's gym analogy, I have my own. Every night I go to bed, I tick a hashmark on a piece of paper I have. I think of it as reps of pull-ups. Lordy, they're hard, but each one makes you stronger. I see a LONG string of checks and I find strength in it. I may have to STARE at them for a long time to get through a bad bout with the urges, but they are a wonder.
Brilliant inspiration!
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Post by ≈ cease4peace ≈ on Dec 17, 2007 11:51:01 GMT -5
Wow thanks guys  I'm glad the words inspired you. Never giving up is an amazing thing. I have been training for 6 weeks now, and it is true, I am discovering a part of me that I didn't know existed. The part of me that doesn't give up inspite of pain. |
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Post by mustbeatthis on Dec 20, 2007 7:02:31 GMT -5
As well as willpower, it might be a good idea to 're-program' your brain at some point, by writing down a new, positive (no 'don'ts', 'musts' or 'wills') set of beliefs and repeating them out loud at some point every day. This way, if you get into a situation where you are tempted, your conscience will be able to draw upon these beliefs to help you stay clean.
Works for me anyway.
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Post by notmylostlove on Dec 20, 2007 15:54:31 GMT -5
Wow, I just saw this thread and it was so inspiring to me. Yesterday I was journaling and I got so angry at my feelings, those feelings that hold me back from moving forward, from doing the things that I am scared of, but things that I need to do. The same feelings that would want me to retreat to P and mb instead. I told them to go to hell because I was going to do what I had to do anyway. I feel this renewed sense of strength that I don't have to let them have the last word. My anxiety is so bad sometimes even doing simple things like emails and phone calls (and posts) I get these horrible feelings in my stomach but I'm not going to accept it anymore. Bring it on. LOL
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I'm glad the words inspired you. Never giving up is an amazing thing. I have been training for 6 weeks now, and it is true, I am discovering a part of me that I didn't know existed. The part of me that doesn't give up inspite of pain.