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Post by danukm25 on Dec 18, 2007 17:19:58 GMT -5
Day one, well it is ten at night and i am writing this before winding down for the night and going to bed, i normally masturbate every day before i go to sleep but not tonight, I am feeling quite calm and relaxed at the moment and am looking forwards to christmas. I find my moods can go up and down a lot within a day or over a few days but at the moment am feeling pretty good and hopeful, keeping the door open whilst i am on the internet seems to be a good rule of thumb that i will add to my plan, anyways thats it for now...
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Post by danukm25 on Dec 19, 2007 17:14:20 GMT -5
well day two has been pretty uneventful, had good meditation session before going to bed last night then went into work for a shift, just chilling out now before going to bed, still feelin relaxed, had some times during the day when had sexual urges but didnt last very long- so far- going out tomorrow night for a drink so need to make sure i stick to low alcohol beer and only have a few pints, night night ! dan
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Post by danukm25 on Dec 21, 2007 13:33:07 GMT -5
day four-
well had a good night last night had a few drinks and didnt go and seek sex, have been feeling good today but feeling a little down and bored at the moment which is usually the time i start looking at porn but decided to write on here instead, it does seem like there is part of my mind which says what are you gaining by giving up porn? what are you going to do with yourself? I think the thing that makes it hard is that when you start giving things up you think that this will make you feel happier which of course it will in the long term but in the short term it doesnt make u feel happier u feel just as bad as u normally would or worse.
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Post by wamu on Dec 21, 2007 17:58:09 GMT -5
yeah i ask myself what i gain by giving it up as well but the answer is obvious for me b/c i have lost so much by holding on to this bugger. anywho even if i gained nothing so obvious i just want to regain control over my life. a crack addict doesn't buy crack cuz he wants it he buys it cuz he needs it. it got to where i didn't want to spend 8 hrs looking at porn (hell i don't want to spend 8 hrs doing anything) i just NEEDED to spend 8 hrs mb/p. and that's pretty freaking stupid. u said u used to mb/p when u were bored...here's is a list of triggers for me
1) do i have a pulse
but at least that's the only one right??? anyway i believe u can beat this little thing & i believe u will. glad u could join the fight. i'm right there w/ya
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