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Post by Taylor on Feb 24, 2003 21:05:54 GMT -5
Today I've been really battling with the Internet to the point where I had to turn it off and walk out during work after going to a porn site and wanting so bad to sit for hours and get lost in it. I was only there for a minute or two but it felt like an eternity. I was actually contmeplating slipping up and just saying what the hell? But then I knew that all I have worked for in the past month would be washed away.
It really sucks sometimes to know that it is an everyday battle that has to be fought and that there is no simple cure.
So the battle wages on and all I can do is ask God for strength and continued focus on other, more important things. You would think after 5 weeks that I wouldn't be struggling as much, but it doesn't seem to matter?
All I know is that I was tempted to throw it all away for a lousy image on a damn screen.
This board continues to be a great place for a reality check and to let me know that I'm not alone.
I appreciate all who have offered advice and support.
Taylor,
34 days and still struggling
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Post by nasa on Feb 24, 2003 21:28:59 GMT -5
Keep working on it Taylor! You're making good progress!
Usually, when I get to the point that I feel like I don't have a good reason to be on the net, I disconnect, unplug the phone line, and sometimes shut the computer entirely down.
Wandering around out there is bad news indeed for me...
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Post by jamesbond on Feb 24, 2003 23:12:03 GMT -5
Many of us are in the same boat. Don't let yourself down by slipping. Do it not just for yourself, but for every addict out there.
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