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Dec 21, 2007 1:00:51 GMT -5
Post by shakaree on Dec 21, 2007 1:00:51 GMT -5
Hello, I'm a 23 y/o male who is addicted to P. I have a fiance of 4 years, who is the greatest women and I love her with all my heart. I been looking at P since I was 14 maybe 15, I use to MB alot to it as well, this carried over into my relationship. In the beginning despite numerous times my fiance catching stuff on the computer I never quit. Except 2+ years ago, I vowed to no longer look and I didn't! I was so happy with this, problem was 2 weeks ago I was caught looking, first time I looked at P in so long. I was humiliated and ashamed, I realized I had a problem, that this was not normal and after coming to this site and seeing other peoples stories and symptoms, it confirmed my assumption that I am addicted.
I DON'T want to look at it anymore, and I KNOW I have the willpower to stop completely (going on 2+ weeks now). I WANT to stop the recurrences, I don't want to slip anymore, what do i do? I am so sorry to allow myself to succumb to this, and I'm even more sorry it has affected such a beautiful person (fiance).
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Dec 21, 2007 1:07:43 GMT -5
Post by nrobinson on Dec 21, 2007 1:07:43 GMT -5
This sounds much like my situation. I looked at P long before I met my wife, then hid it our entire relationship. Even after being caught a few times, I lied about it, telling myself she wouldn't find out again or that what she didn't know wouldn't hurt her. I had been getting much deeper in my faith before the last time she found out, so that, in conjunction with the fear of losing my job and my marriage, prompted me to seek out this forum, Sexaholics Anonymous, and private therapy. It's been about two weeks and my wife is now seeming much more supportive than when she first found out. I truly believe that we'll get past this and have a stronger relationship than ever. It just takes you really wanting to quit and being strong enough to find enough help for you to quit.
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Dec 21, 2007 8:01:35 GMT -5
Post by breakingfree on Dec 21, 2007 8:01:35 GMT -5
Welcome to the board, Shakaree, Use this board as the foundation for your recovery. Make a firm recovery plan and work it EVERYDAY. Ask questions here. Don't assume anything. Download Wes' Ten Keys and read it. Go to www.recoverynation.com, there are many resources available, but they will only help if you use them Thanks for joining us. bf
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