Post by allacrossthesand on Dec 17, 2007 6:48:46 GMT -5
New here, 29 male with an addiction to P and MB. I guess I've known I've had a problem for a while.
Every since I first started to MB and look at porn (magazines) (the two occurred at a very similar point, such that I couldn't say which took place first with any certainty). I've been rather heavily into both. Even though I was far to young to buy porn I was able to get hold of it in my early teen and developed a voracious consumption and would MB 3/4/5 a day.
This has never changed and has in fact slow increased over the years. The growth of the internet coincided with me attending university and plenty of time on my hands and a world of freely available P was a bad mix. Also I've always worked jobs that mean I get obscure days off and free time when others are working so plenty of opportunity to find myself, at a loss for what to do and thats when I tend to feed/fall fowl of my addiction. Although I think it would have occurred/was in me anyway.
It's always there, I can find myself thinking about P/MB at the most odd times and often it P/MB and not sex or women the former pairing have replaced the later to some extent. When I looked old enough to buy P, I found another thrill too the process, the buzz of buying. As much as the actually use the purchasing was part of the process, I loved the rush of going into a newsagents and purchasing a magazine, the risk of getting caught by someone, the selection process, the abstinence of getting it home without looking were as much part of the addiction as the MB that followed. Too the point that between the age of 16-18 whilst working I'd buy a mag most days.
Added to this I find that the high number of times that I MB is part of the problem. Each time I do it, I'm seeking the pleasure of orgasm that only occur on those odd occasions where I haven't for a prolonged period. I still enjoy it but it's never as good as it could be.
Been having a look around and some good stuff on here, will continue to look now but I just wanted to post something.
Every since I first started to MB and look at porn (magazines) (the two occurred at a very similar point, such that I couldn't say which took place first with any certainty). I've been rather heavily into both. Even though I was far to young to buy porn I was able to get hold of it in my early teen and developed a voracious consumption and would MB 3/4/5 a day.
This has never changed and has in fact slow increased over the years. The growth of the internet coincided with me attending university and plenty of time on my hands and a world of freely available P was a bad mix. Also I've always worked jobs that mean I get obscure days off and free time when others are working so plenty of opportunity to find myself, at a loss for what to do and thats when I tend to feed/fall fowl of my addiction. Although I think it would have occurred/was in me anyway.
It's always there, I can find myself thinking about P/MB at the most odd times and often it P/MB and not sex or women the former pairing have replaced the later to some extent. When I looked old enough to buy P, I found another thrill too the process, the buzz of buying. As much as the actually use the purchasing was part of the process, I loved the rush of going into a newsagents and purchasing a magazine, the risk of getting caught by someone, the selection process, the abstinence of getting it home without looking were as much part of the addiction as the MB that followed. Too the point that between the age of 16-18 whilst working I'd buy a mag most days.
Added to this I find that the high number of times that I MB is part of the problem. Each time I do it, I'm seeking the pleasure of orgasm that only occur on those odd occasions where I haven't for a prolonged period. I still enjoy it but it's never as good as it could be.
Been having a look around and some good stuff on here, will continue to look now but I just wanted to post something.
