Post by pushed4time on Dec 14, 2007 19:01:58 GMT -5
Could use some input from you all...
Viewing P has caused me to make some stupid mistakes and dwell sex. Here is the latest.
I am a religious guy play in my church band, father of 3, married for 10 yrs. I am having guilt about being out of town a few weeks ago( salesman) and met a lady in a bar and went back to her room in the hopes of getting her to MB while I watched. See I have been down this road before w/ other women and knew I couldnt have physical r'ship w. her b.c of all the guilt I would feel. I have had to tell my wife on 3 different occasions that I slipped up, while out of town, and had inappropriate contact with other women. I swore to her this last time that it wouldn't happen, and I meant it!!!1 But here I am again. To make a long story short, I did go to her room and she wanted me to spend the night but I didn't. I walked out and nothing really happened other than a few hugs and quick grope before I forced myself to leave.
But the thing is....I feel so guilty for having done that!!! I let myself down...I knew better and really had no intentions on doing anything other than watching but I know that is even too much. The truth is, I could have made it happen if I wanted too but I just couldnt do it. I ended up leaving. Do I need to tell my wife? If I do she will leave me, at least I would leave if I were her. She deserves better than what I give in this regard.
Should I tell her or chalk it up for experience and let this issue go and vow to avoid this situation forever??? Which I REALLY think I can do...This event has caused me to set stricter parameters for myself.
Any suggestions?
Viewing P has caused me to make some stupid mistakes and dwell sex. Here is the latest.
I am a religious guy play in my church band, father of 3, married for 10 yrs. I am having guilt about being out of town a few weeks ago( salesman) and met a lady in a bar and went back to her room in the hopes of getting her to MB while I watched. See I have been down this road before w/ other women and knew I couldnt have physical r'ship w. her b.c of all the guilt I would feel. I have had to tell my wife on 3 different occasions that I slipped up, while out of town, and had inappropriate contact with other women. I swore to her this last time that it wouldn't happen, and I meant it!!!1 But here I am again. To make a long story short, I did go to her room and she wanted me to spend the night but I didn't. I walked out and nothing really happened other than a few hugs and quick grope before I forced myself to leave.
But the thing is....I feel so guilty for having done that!!! I let myself down...I knew better and really had no intentions on doing anything other than watching but I know that is even too much. The truth is, I could have made it happen if I wanted too but I just couldnt do it. I ended up leaving. Do I need to tell my wife? If I do she will leave me, at least I would leave if I were her. She deserves better than what I give in this regard.
Should I tell her or chalk it up for experience and let this issue go and vow to avoid this situation forever??? Which I REALLY think I can do...This event has caused me to set stricter parameters for myself.
Any suggestions?