Post by megan11 on Dec 10, 2007 11:21:26 GMT -5
Well, i gave my H my list of boundaries and to be honest i didnt ask for much at all.
He must attend all his therapy appt.
Take his meds
Go to his SAA meetings
read the books
write in his feeling journal as his therapist instructed
I gave him the boundaries on Tuesday. Wed night He skipped the SAA meeting, Didnt read his books, Friday night went to work WITHOUT his books, and Now he is all about fixing his relationship with his father who he hasnt spoken too (not his fault) in over 2 years, and his brother who he hasnt spoken too in almost 14 years, again, his brother is the one who pushed H away. H says he misses having a family and will call them and open the door for them again. He has one right in front of him and he doesnt try to fix this family? He has ME who he has hurt so bad (where i have done nothing but try to understand all of this mess and fix it) and two little girls and his focus is always somewhere else.
I am tired, very tired. With all the hurtfull things and the lack of care, I wonder if he has ever cared about me at all. I dont think i will be able to hang on after this one. How many times will i have dirt kicked in my face?
Not to mention i helped him make his choice and was understanding once again, and helped him through with this, i am left feeling worthless. He doesnt know and i dont care to explain it again to him. I have told him a million times that he needs to do what he can do for himself to help me but me and the kids are never enough for him to think about.
I guess he wants them now because he knows hes about to lose us. Instead of TRYING to fight for us, he just gives us up.
He must attend all his therapy appt.
Take his meds
Go to his SAA meetings
read the books
write in his feeling journal as his therapist instructed
I gave him the boundaries on Tuesday. Wed night He skipped the SAA meeting, Didnt read his books, Friday night went to work WITHOUT his books, and Now he is all about fixing his relationship with his father who he hasnt spoken too (not his fault) in over 2 years, and his brother who he hasnt spoken too in almost 14 years, again, his brother is the one who pushed H away. H says he misses having a family and will call them and open the door for them again. He has one right in front of him and he doesnt try to fix this family? He has ME who he has hurt so bad (where i have done nothing but try to understand all of this mess and fix it) and two little girls and his focus is always somewhere else.
I am tired, very tired. With all the hurtfull things and the lack of care, I wonder if he has ever cared about me at all. I dont think i will be able to hang on after this one. How many times will i have dirt kicked in my face?
Not to mention i helped him make his choice and was understanding once again, and helped him through with this, i am left feeling worthless. He doesnt know and i dont care to explain it again to him. I have told him a million times that he needs to do what he can do for himself to help me but me and the kids are never enough for him to think about.
I guess he wants them now because he knows hes about to lose us. Instead of TRYING to fight for us, he just gives us up.