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Dec 7, 2007 16:34:53 GMT -5
Post by mike67 on Dec 7, 2007 16:34:53 GMT -5
I just hurt my wife again. I've been checking out porn of all types sense I don"t no when. But, in the past year it's been regular. I've just keep messing up. I think of myself as a strong will person. That nothing can control me. I tell myself that I will never view porn again. That there is better things to do with my life. That because I love my wife I and I don't want t hurt her feelings I wont do it again. I did it again. It doesn't help matters when I don't have her full trust to begin with. Last year I went on a business trip without her. I had gotten several numbers on line of women in he area. Once there I realize that that wasn't a step I was willing to take. Months later she found the #. Ive been trying to gain the trust back. I've been caught by her twice now with porn on the web. I've hurt her. She just knows that I've been cheating. I afraid I will lose her for not having control.
I found this site I hope to find insight to help clean my act up
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Dec 7, 2007 16:50:34 GMT -5
Post by jonas612 on Dec 7, 2007 16:50:34 GMT -5
Mike:
You're in a good place here. Congratulations to you for taking the first step and finding this, and admitting you have an issue. Thats a big step in itself.
There are a lot of things you can look to depending on what you think may help. There are links on here to different support groups. There are links to good reading material. The material and testimonies and support people on this site are already helping me, and I've only been here 2 days. In the end, its up to what you think will aid you best. You CAN control this, you CAN beat it. You just have to decide that you really WANT to. It is that WANT that will give you the willpower to defeat this demon.
Good luck, and welcome.
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Dec 8, 2007 2:10:55 GMT -5
Post by zerotolerance on Dec 8, 2007 2:10:55 GMT -5
Welcome Mike67
The best insight I can offer, is to get out of the p, and stay out of it. I know it's easier said than done, but we can't get better if we keep doing the things that break us to begin with. Don't feed the beast anymore p. P-ng is cheating on your wife.
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chad32
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Becoming pure again...
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Dec 9, 2007 19:48:51 GMT -5
Post by chad32 on Dec 9, 2007 19:48:51 GMT -5
Hi Mike, welcome to the board.
Firstly, I wanted to say that you're no alone. Many of us on the board have been hooked on P for longer than we can remember. 10 years for me, and I'm getting out now. Keep coming back to this board and posting regularly. Whenever I am on the computer and feel tempted I come back here and read and post - it takes the temptation away so well.
I'm keeping a tally of the days I have been porn free - 34 days for me. This is the longest I've gone is many years, and it feels great. Freedom is worth fighting for.
No turning back - P will not beat us!
Chad
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