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Post by capillarian on Aug 27, 2007 1:22:29 GMT -5
I'm not listening either.. I hear ya wanttoquit4good, my voice has been telling me I'm never gonna meet someone for a long time, and sometimes I feel like I want to concede. But I won't.
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Post by rockwell on Aug 29, 2007 11:28:29 GMT -5
The Voice tried to trick me today. But I told him to SHUT UP before he even got the words out. He loses power when yelled at.
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Post by ethanm on Aug 29, 2007 13:34:55 GMT -5
He was a pesky MF'er yesterday when I was tired and hungry, staring at the computer resentng work. He's been licked for now, and for the rest of today. He does NOT get to win.
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Post by rockwell on Sept 13, 2007 11:05:41 GMT -5
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Post by Logan7 on Sept 17, 2007 14:20:43 GMT -5
Hello... I am new to this board, but certainly not new to the struggle. I'm 41, been addicted to porn/masturbation since I was about 10. My problem is simple; I LOVE porn. I have lost a wife, I'm well on the way to loosing another if I don't stop. There are days when I'm strong and I want to stop, and there are times like now when I feel the call... I know the images are out there... the ones that send me over the edge. I'm not good at asking for help in these situations... but I'm really tired of failing God, myself and my family.
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Post by rockwell on Sept 25, 2007 11:58:06 GMT -5
SPEAK to your ACTIVE VOICE in the third person and rebuke him. Make him a seperate entity from yourself. When he tells you to do something inappropriate or tries to get you to lust, speak to him and rebuke him. I learned part of this from someone else on this board (cant remember who), but it is a great technique and it works wonders!
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Post by pointfive on Sept 26, 2007 11:39:50 GMT -5
I was buying a newspaper this morning and I saw a picture of a girl that looked like a p actress and the urge to look at p came rapidly as the voice told me it's okay to look at p cuz I still have some memberships. As I drove down the street I saw a bumper sticker that read "Prayer Makes Change" or something like that so I started asking God to remove the urge to look at p and I feel okay now.
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Post by mo4wo1 on Sept 26, 2007 11:49:23 GMT -5
Can I report on my "voice", too? The computer was acting weird today & I first thought my oldest son had downloaded a game or something. I saw someone had logged-in via remote connection at 4:25 am Monday, but first thought was it was my son. But when I called H to talk about it, and he acted defensive, didn't really let me speak & answered abruptly. First thought after I hung up was, "He's defensive! He's doing something again! Time to check the laptop!" I pulled it down & opened it. But that's all I did. I mean, it's still dusty & hasn't been used, obviously! DUH! And he can't do P though work or he will get fired! (They're very tight on the reigns for everyone at his work.) DUH! Stupid voice! I feel stronger, though, for having not gone over the edge. He really has made progress & I want to ... need to remember that!
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Post by rockwell on Sept 27, 2007 12:48:30 GMT -5
My boss told me that I needed to purchase a webcam for an upcoming conference call we are having. I went out and bought it and installed it, but I was not sure how to get it to actually do a conference call. So I did a google search on "webcam".....well, as you can impagine, the results were filled with porn. I scrolled down the list of pictures in the images section of google. Suddenly I got that "wave" feeling that I used to get when I looked at porn before Feb 22. It was a powerful feeling. My addict voice told me to click on one of the images "just to see whats out there." I must admit I was so close to clicking the image. My heart was racing and the feeling of excitment was building up in my loins. I got out of the screen and just sat here and thought about what was almost about to happen.
Well, I did not give in. But how close was I? Very scary. And after just lecturing several people on not giving into lust, I find myself in this position.
It is absolutely sick and sad that porn is THAT easy for anyone to access, no matter how young they are. I wonder if it is safe to say that 90% of early teen boys are now addicts. I bet thats true. How could it not be true. There are no safeguards, and nothing to stop them from starting into this life-long addiction.
I urge everyone here to install a software filter onto your home computer. This is an absolute MUST if you have children. But it is also a MUST for any of us that consider ourselves addicts.
I am a bit shaken at what happened to me today. The physical sensations I was feeling and that rush to my brain.....that irrisistable feeling that I had almost forgotten about bounced back in one zap to my brain.
Just goes to show that we are never "cured" of this. We have to fight this with everything we have. We have to be aware and shoot down our addict voice.
I do feel kind of guilty even though I did not give in. I feel guilty because I had known in my mind that images would appear when I typed in the word WEBCAM. INSANE how many impages are porn.
Lesson learned.
rock
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Post by Clean2day on Oct 4, 2007 2:13:03 GMT -5
Had problems with the voice Wednesday. I knew I was going to be alone, for some time as my wife was going over to help our grand daughter take her two kid to the doctors. Then she always stays and does things around her house.
Gee! I can do what I want and nobody will know the difference. Yes, I could and that is what I did. Just what I wanted. I mowed the lawn, did the laundry and then I sat myself down and watched Gunsmoke and had myself a Coke Float.
A friend from Fla, Tom Capps, likes when he is giving a message likes to sit down and in his loudest voice yell, "Devil, God's in control!" That is what I did, and you Rockwell is right. The voice listens when you tell him go get lost.
It had started early, even before I got off work and the doctors apt wasn't until the afternoon. I hate those times when it seems to just hang on. One time as I walked through the house and walked passed the computer it talked to me. had to tell it to shut up. No computer is going to set me back.
Shouldn't post a full story on the thread but just wanted to tell how the day went.
C2d
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Post by rockwell on Oct 11, 2007 16:40:38 GMT -5
Speak to the Addict voice by calling it "IT." Say "IT wants me to look at P" or "IT wants me to MB, but I will not." I got this idea from Arctic who got it from a book. It is very effective technique. Try it.
rock
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Post by breakingdachains on Oct 11, 2007 21:13:08 GMT -5
This is an awesome thread
Today my tempting voice wanted me to look up some nude pictures of a celebrity I saw on tv.
This is usually how I break my porn prohibition, I tell myself it's ok to look at nudes of a celebrity but then I quickly turn to porn.
I quickly dismissed them because it's not the truth, It's just the tempting voice
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Post by breakingdachains on Oct 11, 2007 22:45:37 GMT -5
In the back of my head
There are thoughts waiting to emerge for the right time
They are thoughts of time
They see time as a tool
After a while I know the voice will say you have spent alot of time not mb and not viewing p It will try to justify itself. It will mix truth with lies.
Time means nothing at this point, I want to be free from time
I want to free myself from this enslavement
I know others out there know what I'm talking about
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Post by breakingdachains on Oct 13, 2007 21:01:01 GMT -5
Day 6 here
Today the voice tempted me with a website that had a wide variety of hard to find porno
It tempted me with saying "common this site isn't gonna last that long..." "I wonder what the updates are...."
then it just tempts me with these feelings that make me feel good and tempt by telling me if I watch P or MB i will feel even better..
I've had this happen time and time before..
I can pull out to the side analyze them and put them in a box.
The best thing to do is avoid divert your thoughts and never think deep into them and sink into the seduction
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Post by breakingdachains on Oct 14, 2007 0:46:55 GMT -5
gotta make another post
The voice is getting more powerful, the temptations are getting stronger, right now the feelings that I had days earlier are starting to fade and are becoming overcome by strong temptations. I know they are not right, I truly know because they just don't feel "right"
I am trying to stay strong and riding the storm, I know the p is calling me but I'm going to resist the temptation.. I am going to resist the temptation... I am going to resist the temptation... I am strong I am NOT A SLAVE. I AM NOT A SLAVE I AM NOT A SLAVE I AM NOT A SLAVE
I WILL NOT FALL FOR EVIL...
I WILL NOT FALL FOR EVIL...
I care ONLY FOR GOOD
I CARE ONLY FOR GOOD
I CARE ONLY FOR GOOD
I CARE ONLY FOR GOOD
I will get through this
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