Post by capillarian on Sept 1, 2007 4:29:37 GMT -5
28 clean days.. That's nearly a month (I don't think I'll consider it a full month until I reach September 4th, since I started August 4th). That means 3 more days until my mini-milestone.
I think I had a wobble yesterday too, cleantoday34. I use Facebook often and I was checking to see if there was a sex addicts group (don't know why I bothered - Facebook isn't exactly anonymous, so if you joined a group, all of your contacts would know). I was scanning the list of groups (they all happen to have little thumbnails too) and I came across a less-than-appropriate group with a FAR-from-appropriate picture. I (almost) immediately scrolled back up, but unfortunately the damage was done. I was extremely annoyed with the person who was insensitive enough to put that picture up, and I surely cannot be the only one. I'm sure that any responsible and committed religious person would have been offended by it, had they been in my stead. I contemplated emailing the group administrator or the Facebook webmasters about it, but I thought it likely that I would end up having to glance at the picture again and so I forgot about it.
This has happened a couple of other times too, such as while watching a movie - 'Babel' is an example of a movie that seems normal on the surface, but in fact has some pretty shocking scenes. Luckily for me, my main addiction never was to porn as much as it was to compulsive masturbation, and so I don't necessarily feel like my sobriety has been ruined. But porn always leads to MB, and so even the slightest bit of temptation is a potential snowball in the making.
EDIT: How do you guys feel about instances like these, when we accidentally come across something powerfully triggering, or even P itself? Is it a violation of sobriety? What if person X doesn't look away instantly? In my case, it took a split-second to realize that the picture was obscene, but I spent another split-second trying to actually configure what it was the picture was depicting.
I think I had a wobble yesterday too, cleantoday34. I use Facebook often and I was checking to see if there was a sex addicts group (don't know why I bothered - Facebook isn't exactly anonymous, so if you joined a group, all of your contacts would know). I was scanning the list of groups (they all happen to have little thumbnails too) and I came across a less-than-appropriate group with a FAR-from-appropriate picture. I (almost) immediately scrolled back up, but unfortunately the damage was done. I was extremely annoyed with the person who was insensitive enough to put that picture up, and I surely cannot be the only one. I'm sure that any responsible and committed religious person would have been offended by it, had they been in my stead. I contemplated emailing the group administrator or the Facebook webmasters about it, but I thought it likely that I would end up having to glance at the picture again and so I forgot about it.
This has happened a couple of other times too, such as while watching a movie - 'Babel' is an example of a movie that seems normal on the surface, but in fact has some pretty shocking scenes. Luckily for me, my main addiction never was to porn as much as it was to compulsive masturbation, and so I don't necessarily feel like my sobriety has been ruined. But porn always leads to MB, and so even the slightest bit of temptation is a potential snowball in the making.
EDIT: How do you guys feel about instances like these, when we accidentally come across something powerfully triggering, or even P itself? Is it a violation of sobriety? What if person X doesn't look away instantly? In my case, it took a split-second to realize that the picture was obscene, but I spent another split-second trying to actually configure what it was the picture was depicting.