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Post by james78 on Jul 8, 2007 6:13:01 GMT -5
Welcome,
You've come to the right place. These forums, and this thread, have some great people that can support you in this. If you want to work more closely with a small group of believers there are the accountability circles which are new here. I have sent you a PM with details.
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Post by Wayward One on Jul 9, 2007 0:17:27 GMT -5
Being bored at work seems to be my most vunerable time. Treadstone, (Funny but I was watching the Bourne Supremacy tonight...) Got to say that bordem is one of my really bad times too. I think it has to do with me not being totally aware at those times. I'm with you and I am praying for you. I'm praying for your wife as well. I pray for peace for you both.
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Post by jack on Jul 9, 2007 16:12:34 GMT -5
So I was talking to a guy at a meeting last night because he said something about his life that I very much identified with and I wondered if his experience might give me some insight into my own situation . After a minute or so he said to me " you're probably going to think Im crazy but I have commited my life to Jesus Christ" When that guy said that to me I was just filled with a great feeling for the Lord. We talked a little about our experience and nothing was solved nor was any great conclusion reached but I felt like I was in the presence of the Holy spirit and I felt good . I drove home feeling good. I love God.
Jack
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Post by rockwell on Jul 9, 2007 16:28:40 GMT -5
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Post by MrOuch on Jul 9, 2007 21:57:18 GMT -5
That's awesome Jack!
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Post by h3h8m3 on Jul 9, 2007 22:15:25 GMT -5
Hey Guys, I'd like to introduce myself.
I am a follower of Christ. And I'm addicted to pornography. I absolutely hate it.
I don't have any excuses for my actions. I have been blessed throughout my life. A good family. Good education. Good jobs. A fantastic wife. And now we're looking forward to having our first child in October. I know God can change people. I know addictions can be defeated. I have an addictive personality, so I know from personal experience that God can simply remove an addiction.
But I've been battling with this addiction off and on for about 15 years. I'm only 30 years old. The advent of the internet was probably the worst thing that could have happened for me. I am another computer geek, working on a computer is absolutely required in my job. I also have my own office at work with all the privacy a guy could need. At home I have a laptop computer and a basement. I have all kinds of warning before my wife can come into the room. In short, there's all the opportunity in the world to fall if I so choose.
I don't mean to go on forever. I'll tell more about myself over the next days and weeks, as I use this board as a replacement for P. It's been really neat to get to know a bit about you guys. Jack, seeing your posts every day has been encouraging to me. I know what you're going through, and I'm very proud that you've resisted temptation. Keep it up.
I'll be praying for you, please be praying for me.
-R
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Post by rockwell on Jul 10, 2007 8:59:10 GMT -5
h3h8m3 Welcome! Your idea of coming to this message board instead of going to P is a good one. Check out the partners board as well. Seeing the pain they are in is like throwing a bucket of ice water on your head. I will pray for you!
< ROCKWELL >
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Post by jack on Jul 10, 2007 9:50:58 GMT -5
One more day without porn please. Thank you in advance God.
..." our weapons are not carnal but are mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds. Casting down imaginations and every thing that exaltith itself against the knowelege of God."...
When I read that I feel like it was written directly for us in this situation of lust for sex and pornography.
Jack
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Post by h3h8m3 on Jul 10, 2007 11:51:38 GMT -5
Thanks for the response Rockwell. Another fellow earlier mentioned that the worst thing for him about porn is his wife's response. I think it's the same for me. My wife is a very good woman. A much better wife than I deserve. We've been married for 5 years, but known each other much longer, since early high school. She's known about my problem since college. And it's very clear how much it hurts her whenever it's discussed. Every couple of years it comes up between us, not much, but occasionally. Her emotional response to it is so strong that I feel like I can't really discuss it with her. Maybe I use that as an excuse to continue sinning rather than work together with her. I don't know.
Last night after posting on the board I did my quiet time for the first time in a week or two. I am currently reading through 1 Peter. Last night's passage was timely:
"1Therefore, since Christ suffered in his body, arm yourselves also with the same attitude, because he who has suffered in his body is done with sin. 2As a result, he does not live the rest of his earthly life for evil human desires, but rather for the will of God. 3For you have spent enough time in the past doing what pagans choose to do—living in debauchery, lust, drunkenness, orgies, carousing and detestable idolatry." 1 Peter 4:1-3
Considering the fact that mere minutes before reading this I'd just recommitted myself to battling this addiction, this passage seemed divinely timed.
My plan is to come to this site when temptations are strong at work. And to just leave my laptop turn off in its bag when I'm at home. I know God has all the power, and he always leaves me a way out of my temptations, but sometimes I don't do so well taking advantage of those escape opportunities.
The idea of bringing a son into this world to face this temptation scares me. I know how badly I have done with this obsticle, and I know many many other men who have failed at it as well. I want to be an example for my son in regards to thinking about and treating women. I have a long way to go, but as you know the journey of a 1000 miles begins with a single step (or something like that).
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Post by rockwell on Jul 10, 2007 12:45:46 GMT -5
Our source of strength is in the highest and greatest and most ultimate power in all the universe. This being is personal, and he has adopted us so that he is our spiritual father. Since we now belong to him, we can call out to him as a child calls to his father for help and protection. He swoops us up in his arms and carries us. We are safe with him. He only wants what is best for us.
Pick us up, Dad. carry us home where we are safe with you always.
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Post by jack on Jul 11, 2007 7:50:41 GMT -5
Jesus is my breast plate of righteousness. Thankyou for shielding me yesterday and thankyou for shielding me today.
I am willing to rely on Christ.
I am loved by the King.
We are loved by the King.
Jack
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Post by h3h8m3 on Jul 11, 2007 10:27:55 GMT -5
Yesterday went well. As I spent the day trying to keep my thoughts pure I realized how many times my mind turned toward lustful thoughts. It was quite startling to see how trained my mind is to think on those things. I continued to try to bounce my eyes and my mind when they landed on evil things.
I thank God for promising to ensure I'm never tempted more than I can bear. And I thank you all for your testimonies that help me keep battling.
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Post by rockwell on Jul 12, 2007 15:39:16 GMT -5
h3h8m3 - Hang in there. The first few weeks are the toughest, perhaps the first 3 weeks, but a habit can be broken within this timeframe. And with God's help and with the help of your support team here, you can make it!
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Post by humble on Jul 12, 2007 19:50:42 GMT -5
h3h8m3
Hey buddy. Hang in there.
We can do it.
I'm praying for you.
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Post by jack on Jul 14, 2007 14:16:17 GMT -5
Lord, Your word says that youwill never leave me or foresake me. Please help me to feel that in my heart and know it to my very core. I need you. Nothing else is any good. Jack
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