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Post by unbreakable on Dec 19, 2007 5:05:28 GMT -5
Hey, just take your time, one day at a time is a fine goal and one that you can keep in sight.
Read your last post again and see how closely you tie this addiction to your loneliness. How weird is that, because watching porn doesn't make you any less alone does it? It doesn't even fill the gap that that loneliness is causing. It just ... I don't know ... distracts us from the pursuit of our own happiness.
I imagine you came here because your predilection to pornography was causing you hurt. Don't forget that. In your pursuit of happiness you need to rid yourself of the distraction which are ultimately hindering that pursuit.
Read your first few posts and remember how good abstaining felt, and remember that that very real happiness is preferable to the placebo that a few moments 'high' on porn offer, especially given the 'comedown' that slipping invariably offers us.
Good luck. I believe in you. In the end, making the choice to make a change like this is simply the first step of a long hard road, but I still believe it's an effort worth making and when was anything worth having ever simple anyway?
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Post by Mayberry on Dec 19, 2007 21:43:23 GMT -5
You can love and be loved. And I, for one, look forward to being nearby on your journey.
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jackson
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Post by jackson on Dec 29, 2007 10:13:04 GMT -5
What the hell happened to me......reading back over the last few entries makes me almost cry, there is so much anger and longing. i slipped big time. in fact i slipped so badly i can't remember when it started or what exactly triggered it. for the last two weeks i have been in a porn daze. completely smothered from the realities of life, head in the sand. now i start this recovery road again. and im so tired of doing so. i've been here time and time again. ...how can i make this time diffirent??? firstly .STOP MOANING!!!! this is where i am in my life and its ok to be here.
i am suddenly lost for words...i feel i should have lots to say...but that in itself i recognise as a problem in my life. i don't think i allow myself to just be. i really want to make this year count but this is not a new year resolution. i know i have the power to be a powerfull person in life, but often when i close my eyes and visualise myself in the future i see myself alone. no one with me.
thanks unbreakable for pointing that out to me. i think my biggest challenge to come will be the challenge to relate to other people. sometimes its just so difficult to pick up the phone and call a friend without this insane internal diaglog saying 'you are not worthy of friendship, you are not worthy of love'.
thanks unbreakable, backstabber and mayberry for your support. this journey goes on.
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backstabber
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The man with no plan
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Post by backstabber on Jan 1, 2008 16:10:27 GMT -5
Look, just don't worry about it. You are gonna make it if you want it. Simple as that. Just try hard.
It ain't bad if you failed. The bad thing is if you give up. Don't give up! You can do this!
Look at me, I'm not exactly the best person to give advice but I thought a few words could help you.
Do anything to stay clean. In time things will be alright, thats what I'm hoping for.
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